point of no return..

was thinking of how to title my post and so here it is.. quoting and unquoting my friend's comment.. sounds like phantom of the opera as well.. but there's no underground hideway, no river, no mist, no boat and no music...

well, perhaps more true than not, as of today, i've crossed the point of no return.. i've just been made 1610 bucks poorer but of course, spending future money but where's the money coming from?? i have absolutely no idea except that i did not rob, steal or plunder...

wrote my fair shares of emails for the past few nights and got some replies.. mixed emotions with respect to the replies that i've gotten.. not sure on what to do about them.. just that it brought me back to the point, whether if i should still cling on to whatever hope that is still out there... in many ways, it's as good as trying to capture the wind and keep it in a bag... part of what i've been hoping for to happen has kind of taken place.. well, i should be contented but yet, i'm still clinging on, hoping that something else will occur, especially to my favour.. oh Lord, teach me to be contented or do i not even want to be?

on a lighter note, i ruled the office with angeline in the evening.. gonna miss her when she leaves next friday.. all those hours spent in front of the computer editing and tallying figures and all the take-out sessions from arcade/ caltex house/ 24-hour/ philip street.. and definitely all those times of almost killing each other..

hmm, and i caught a familiar ring tone this morning on my way to work.. the same ring tone which i thought was a transmission back from the forest over the walkie-talkie.. sheesh!! and guess what, an email came in from abang franky this evening!!! oh man!!! so great to hear from him... both he and abang taku will be flying in to nias in a few days time.. man, i miss them loads too.. but ibu saya and abang devin will be flying into singapore in a few days time too!! woohoo!! all that's missing is uncle bernard, who is enjoying himself in LA now... *laughs*...

oh, kelvin called this afternoon and i promised to go back and help with score tabulation on rag day.. hmm.. oh gosh, what have i gotten myself into again!! well, at least, there's the seat near the vip area.. *crossing my fingers*.. i miss rag but guess it's more of the company that i miss..

oh oh!!! here's more about seeker's service.. we're gonna have heart-shaped cookies!!! aunty ammie and company are gonna be involved in the baking but sigh, i can't bake for peanuts.. don't want the kitchen/ pantry to end up in smoke... and we are gonna have fudge express too!!! cool isn't it!!!??? it's like a befriender's cafe... but it's gonna be so cool coz it's over desserts and coffee over any topic.. hmm, shall pop by the dry-run this sunday!!! so excited for the next seeker's service: HOPELESS ROMANTICS!!!