it takes more than talent
---- john paul jackson
It takes people with godly character and habits to effectively advance the Kingdom of God. While there are many talented and anointed leaders, those who have a foundation of godly character (moral excellence) will lead more than by their words; they model by their lifestyle in ways that are truly transformational. It is who we are -- more than what we know -- that inspires genuine change in another person's life.
Each of us must decide to take the necessary steps to strengthen our own moral legacy. We must practice what we preach. We must realize that moral excellence can only be built through Bible study, quiet times with God, and a history of making "right choices" -- or what I like to call "hidden victories." Such hidden victories occur when you do the "right" thing -- pay your taxes, tithe, show kindness to your wife and children, bless someone who has hurt you -- even when no one sees you except God. A history of "hidden victories" will insure long-term success in the Kingdom.
4 Components of Godly Character
As I have studied Scripture and meditated on God's view of character, I have concluded that four components provide evidence of godly character: love, integrity, maturity, and an abundance mentality.
1. Love is essential to every ministry. The Apostle Paul wrote: "If I speak God's Word with power, revealing all His mysteries and making everything plain as day, and if I have faith that says to a mountain, 'Jump,' and it jumps, but I don't love, I'm nothing" (1 Corinthians 13:2, The Message). Throughout God's Kingdom, there have been generations of "gifted nothings" -- people who have done miraculous work but who never truly understood the need for intimacy with God.
2. Integrity is the act of being honest at all times. We must forge a foundation of trust with those whom we are mentoring, equipping, and leading. If we have integrity, our words will be remembered, because others will have seen that our actions match our words. Jesus had the highest level of integrity possible; His disciples knew that Jesus practiced what He preached.
3. Maturity involves sound reasoning and decision-making. When a person has walked through the trials and fires of life, spiritual maturity is developed. God says in Isaiah 48:10, "Behold, I have refined you, but not as silver; I have tested you in the furnace of affliction." This furnace is at full flame when we are off the platform, living our lives away from the public eye. It takes the private testing of God to see a person's character solidify and mature.
4. Abundance mentality sees God as having so much talent and anointing to give that no individual could have it all. The mind-set of abundance is about demonstrating humility -- it's not about us, but about God and His Kingdom. Anything less will breed jealousy. We must have a heart that blesses the gifts others have, knowing that all gifts are given by God to help others and to advance God's Kingdom.
"Only Through Him Can We Help Others Reach Their God-Given Destiny"
God wants us to live today in such a way that will inspire others tomorrow. He has a vantage point of what will be, not just what is, or has been.
Many of us have been content to grasp at slivers of spiritual insights, but the Holy Spirit wants to give us fuller concepts of God and His ways.
We must develop an ever-growing godly character and walk in greater integrity and maturity so that we can understand God's plans and visions for others. The Lord, by helping us practice our private victories, can make our lives a lasting and public contribution to His eternal Kingdom. Only through Him can we help others reach their God-given destiny.
Wednesday, September 29, 2004
watching the sun set...
that was exactly what i did today... can you believe this?? i actually spent my afternoon in central library, trying to study for my german and cet test.. both on thursday.. how exciting can things get... the best part is, my productivity tended towards zero... oh well, considering that i'm not exactly doing very well in my course, guess i better do something about it... and everyone was like, oh my gosh, you are studying!!!???
anyway, i got this seat next to the window.. which wasn't exactly really exciting coz all you can see is jurong island, which according to my seniors, the sight of it inspires them to study harder... right!!! but it's not working for me... then at about 630pm, yusen asked me to look out of the window.. and there, i saw the large orange sun setting.. it was fast disappearing into the horizon..
hmm, it's been a long time since i last saw the sun set.. back in Deutschland, all i saw was the sky changing from dusk to darkness within a 30-minute interval.. anyway, yusen made a comment that got me thinking: the sun is setting so fast, we must be spinning really fast but we just can't feel it happening beneath us..
i don't think we really want to feel the earth rotating coz it will just mean, we are spinning as well.. which is not a good thing... just marvelled at how wonderful the Lord has created this earth and how He looks into these little details.. making sure that these details are actually taken care of.. and how beautiful His creation is.. i mean, just look at the sun, how it rises from the east and sets in the west.. all the science behind it... of all creation, the Lord made Man the smartest of all beings yet he can't and can never do something like this... no one can fathom His wisdom...
despite the fact that everyone was busy studying and mugging in the library, and i'm supposed to be getting stressed up, i just felt so serene that moment... the sunset served as a little reminder of how God is omnipresent.. a little scary coz it means that He knows exactly what you are doing and thinking about... and everyday, He makes the sun rises and sets at the right time... it's so comforting to know that there is someone who is taking care of everything in the world, including me!!! it just feels so marvellous and wonderful... i am just too in awe...
wishing that i have more time to do this... just enjoying the Lord's creation...
anyway, i got this seat next to the window.. which wasn't exactly really exciting coz all you can see is jurong island, which according to my seniors, the sight of it inspires them to study harder... right!!! but it's not working for me... then at about 630pm, yusen asked me to look out of the window.. and there, i saw the large orange sun setting.. it was fast disappearing into the horizon..
hmm, it's been a long time since i last saw the sun set.. back in Deutschland, all i saw was the sky changing from dusk to darkness within a 30-minute interval.. anyway, yusen made a comment that got me thinking: the sun is setting so fast, we must be spinning really fast but we just can't feel it happening beneath us..
i don't think we really want to feel the earth rotating coz it will just mean, we are spinning as well.. which is not a good thing... just marvelled at how wonderful the Lord has created this earth and how He looks into these little details.. making sure that these details are actually taken care of.. and how beautiful His creation is.. i mean, just look at the sun, how it rises from the east and sets in the west.. all the science behind it... of all creation, the Lord made Man the smartest of all beings yet he can't and can never do something like this... no one can fathom His wisdom...
despite the fact that everyone was busy studying and mugging in the library, and i'm supposed to be getting stressed up, i just felt so serene that moment... the sunset served as a little reminder of how God is omnipresent.. a little scary coz it means that He knows exactly what you are doing and thinking about... and everyday, He makes the sun rises and sets at the right time... it's so comforting to know that there is someone who is taking care of everything in the world, including me!!! it just feels so marvellous and wonderful... i am just too in awe...
wishing that i have more time to do this... just enjoying the Lord's creation...
Saturday, September 25, 2004
feeling happy [version 3.0.. almost]
had a great time at SOC this evening... to have huiran back with us after the prelims and all.. yahoo!!! oh yes, we were discussing about 'belonging in God's household'... we are called to belong, not just to believe... to serve our Lord and each other too...
oh yes, we celebrated sean's and my birthdays!!! so exciting!! and we got chocolate banana cake from awfully chocolate!!! oh man!!! it's like the ultimate shop i want to visit for chocolate cakes and all.. but the catch, it's all the way in the east!!! but now, i need not travel to the east to even get to eat it!!! it's awfully sinful!!! equivalent to my mudpie from yesterday night!!!!
on the way home, joanne, sean and me actually went to the pasam malam at our place!!! joanne and sean were so drawn by the smells but we were all so bloated from the chocolate cake fiesta, no one exactly wanted to eat any more stuff... oh yes, joanne was so excited over the pasam malam.. we walked through the place and saw interesting stuff like hamtaro, doraemon etc. figurines... some childhood long ago... oh, met augustin and dale too!!! oh man, haven't seen them for ages... miss seeing all these people around and crapping with them...
oh yes... got this message today and once again, it has its ways and means to make me really happy and all!!! "happy belated birthday! haha sorry so late.. one year older, so you are one year closer to your ah-soh dreams.. :-D"
oh yes, we celebrated sean's and my birthdays!!! so exciting!! and we got chocolate banana cake from awfully chocolate!!! oh man!!! it's like the ultimate shop i want to visit for chocolate cakes and all.. but the catch, it's all the way in the east!!! but now, i need not travel to the east to even get to eat it!!! it's awfully sinful!!! equivalent to my mudpie from yesterday night!!!!
on the way home, joanne, sean and me actually went to the pasam malam at our place!!! joanne and sean were so drawn by the smells but we were all so bloated from the chocolate cake fiesta, no one exactly wanted to eat any more stuff... oh yes, joanne was so excited over the pasam malam.. we walked through the place and saw interesting stuff like hamtaro, doraemon etc. figurines... some childhood long ago... oh, met augustin and dale too!!! oh man, haven't seen them for ages... miss seeing all these people around and crapping with them...
oh yes... got this message today and once again, it has its ways and means to make me really happy and all!!! "happy belated birthday! haha sorry so late.. one year older, so you are one year closer to your ah-soh dreams.. :-D"
Thursday, September 23, 2004
feeling happy [version 2.0]
guess where i went today?? no prizes for getting it right!!! went to nydc at suntec city... yes, suntec again!!! went to suntec 3 times in one week!!! but this time, it's with liwei and weiyao, to celebrate my birthday... but half the time, i just kept getting 'suaned' by the 2 of them!!! oh yes, and how i still cannot watch a RA movie.. not that i want to but movies such as 'goodbye lenin'... stupid german film that has a RA-rating... goodness!!! *humph*...
ate my usuals at nydc... destiny's child... but dessert was not at nydc... we ended up at coffee club express at raffles city shopping centre.. but before we went over, we went to carrefour to shop!! right, we went to carrefour... and lo and behold, 3 bottles erdinger weißbier were going for $19.95... with free schwäbische knusper-brezel and erdinger towel, which liwei is really excited over and all!!! weiyao and me were going on about how the towel was most probably printed in singapore and all... *laughs*...
took a long walk over to raffles city shopping centre... had one whole muddy mud-pie to myself... oh man, it's so sinful!!! i mean, ice cream and chocolate and mudpie... goodness, it's enough to make one faint and i ate it all by myself.. and liwei ate so little.. oh my gosh, i should be so disgusted with my own appetite man!!! oh yes, yingchao and zoe dropped by to pass me one of the items on my wish-list... forget-me-nots!!! that's really nice of them and all!!! oh yes, we visited this really exciting shop... great!! i forgot the name!!! anyway, i was so tempted to just spoil myself and liwei had to stop me from doing so... else would have given in to temptation...
feeling so full and all.. but thank God for that long walk back to suntec, which kind of aided in digestion of all the food swimming in my stomach... but it was a tiring walk since we were all pretty tired and all... talked so much crap and rubbish... nonsense crap that made me feel really silly but happy and all.. really thank God for friends like these 2 guys.. just thinking back, it's really weird how we became such good friends too... it's the wonders of friendship and how God has brought such friends into my life...
had a little talk with my brother on the way home... can't exactly say much here but...
"do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where theives break in and steal. but store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not destroy , and where theives do not break in and steal. for where you treasure is, there your heart will be also."
Matthew 6: 19-21
once again, thanks loads guys!!! really enjoyed myself.. though we all got so crappy and tired along the way.. coupled with lan game and all!!! right!!! and oh yes, luke is going for his biking competition on sunday too!!! feeling excited for him...
ate my usuals at nydc... destiny's child... but dessert was not at nydc... we ended up at coffee club express at raffles city shopping centre.. but before we went over, we went to carrefour to shop!! right, we went to carrefour... and lo and behold, 3 bottles erdinger weißbier were going for $19.95... with free schwäbische knusper-brezel and erdinger towel, which liwei is really excited over and all!!! weiyao and me were going on about how the towel was most probably printed in singapore and all... *laughs*...
took a long walk over to raffles city shopping centre... had one whole muddy mud-pie to myself... oh man, it's so sinful!!! i mean, ice cream and chocolate and mudpie... goodness, it's enough to make one faint and i ate it all by myself.. and liwei ate so little.. oh my gosh, i should be so disgusted with my own appetite man!!! oh yes, yingchao and zoe dropped by to pass me one of the items on my wish-list... forget-me-nots!!! that's really nice of them and all!!! oh yes, we visited this really exciting shop... great!! i forgot the name!!! anyway, i was so tempted to just spoil myself and liwei had to stop me from doing so... else would have given in to temptation...
feeling so full and all.. but thank God for that long walk back to suntec, which kind of aided in digestion of all the food swimming in my stomach... but it was a tiring walk since we were all pretty tired and all... talked so much crap and rubbish... nonsense crap that made me feel really silly but happy and all.. really thank God for friends like these 2 guys.. just thinking back, it's really weird how we became such good friends too... it's the wonders of friendship and how God has brought such friends into my life...
had a little talk with my brother on the way home... can't exactly say much here but...
"do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moth and rust destroy, and where theives break in and steal. but store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moth and rust do not destroy , and where theives do not break in and steal. for where you treasure is, there your heart will be also."
Matthew 6: 19-21
once again, thanks loads guys!!! really enjoyed myself.. though we all got so crappy and tired along the way.. coupled with lan game and all!!! right!!! and oh yes, luke is going for his biking competition on sunday too!!! feeling excited for him...
Wednesday, September 22, 2004
20 years of existence..
ending the 20th year of my existence on earth and starting on my 21st... well, today may be the quietest and most boring birthday ever... but it's one that i really enjoyed loads... no hot dates, no loud parties.. just quietness...
had a really long talk with meine 'mutter' till the wee hours of the night... really nice to be talking to her and all.. can't believe the stuff that we talked and all.. but it was really great to be catching up with her despite all the frenzy in school and all..
anyway, slept most of the day away despite the fact that i have to study.. but everyone's like, it's your birthday, go enjoy yourself first!!! sleep is good... well, at least to me.. and my parents had to wake me up for dinner...
went to crystal jade @ suntec city... had the usuals.. but i really liked dinner... then went to the häagen daaz at esplanade for dessert!!! sehr spannend!!! seriously, you can just faint at the dessert spread there, though it's all ice cream and all.. now you understand why my diet plan will never work out!!! yupz, all in all, it's pure indulgence!! went to the waterfront.. it just kinda felt different though i was there on monday night too.. as usual, i love the lights, the smell of the sea... the little quietness there, despite the fact that there was a cocktail party at harry's...
just thinking through... having lived 20 years now.. what have these years been like? realised that many things won't be how it is if it won't for the people around me.. people who have been with me all the way.. encouraged me through all the down-times.. shared my joy during the up-times... realised how blessed i am.. with my family... and with the friends, be it overseas or back home.. how faithful and wonderful they are...
but most importantly, realised how would life have been, if it won't for one person... my Heavenly Father, my Lord, my Saviour.. realised how desperately i need Him in my life.. despite the many times i try with my own will, with my own earthly wisdom and strength, only to realise that i always fail and end up in the pits... realised that He is the one the truly gives strength to the weak and riches to the poor... i'm actually lost for words here.. i'm just so overwhelmed by His grace and His love.. just wondering, how can anyone love us unconditionally... it's just too good to be true but IT IS!!! isn't that amazing?? 'amazing love, how can it be.. that you my King would die for me..'
i am where i am because of Him... i am here by grace..
"we love because He first loved us."
1 John 4:19
had a really long talk with meine 'mutter' till the wee hours of the night... really nice to be talking to her and all.. can't believe the stuff that we talked and all.. but it was really great to be catching up with her despite all the frenzy in school and all..
anyway, slept most of the day away despite the fact that i have to study.. but everyone's like, it's your birthday, go enjoy yourself first!!! sleep is good... well, at least to me.. and my parents had to wake me up for dinner...
went to crystal jade @ suntec city... had the usuals.. but i really liked dinner... then went to the häagen daaz at esplanade for dessert!!! sehr spannend!!! seriously, you can just faint at the dessert spread there, though it's all ice cream and all.. now you understand why my diet plan will never work out!!! yupz, all in all, it's pure indulgence!! went to the waterfront.. it just kinda felt different though i was there on monday night too.. as usual, i love the lights, the smell of the sea... the little quietness there, despite the fact that there was a cocktail party at harry's...
just thinking through... having lived 20 years now.. what have these years been like? realised that many things won't be how it is if it won't for the people around me.. people who have been with me all the way.. encouraged me through all the down-times.. shared my joy during the up-times... realised how blessed i am.. with my family... and with the friends, be it overseas or back home.. how faithful and wonderful they are...
but most importantly, realised how would life have been, if it won't for one person... my Heavenly Father, my Lord, my Saviour.. realised how desperately i need Him in my life.. despite the many times i try with my own will, with my own earthly wisdom and strength, only to realise that i always fail and end up in the pits... realised that He is the one the truly gives strength to the weak and riches to the poor... i'm actually lost for words here.. i'm just so overwhelmed by His grace and His love.. just wondering, how can anyone love us unconditionally... it's just too good to be true but IT IS!!! isn't that amazing?? 'amazing love, how can it be.. that you my King would die for me..'
i am where i am because of Him... i am here by grace..
"we love because He first loved us."
1 John 4:19
wish list 2004/2005
- nike track shoes [checked]
- dinner at stammtisch or tamade..
- forget-me-nots & baby-breaths…
- schwarzwälder kirschtorte from hilton hotel…
- olympus digital camera [checked]
- backpack… 60L or more though
- backpacking trip to Europe, which will cost about 5000 bucks!!!
- change my spectacles frame [checked]
- watch ‘mamma-mia’…
- improve deutschsprache…
- brief von meiner gästfamilie
- card from nitya in Nottingham… [checked]
- nokia 6100
- luke & yunling to do well for their exams..
- luke to win his biking competition...
- see all of them grow up... elizabeth, daniel, bernice, grace lee, grace tan, magdalene, isabel, jacob, issac, chloe, celeste, clarence, charlene, samuel, adele, zekiel, joshua, david, marven, martin, maranda, jonathan, nicholas, shoupin, micheal, michelle, glenda, germaine, roshen, emma, zoe-ern... and many more...
- and many more wishes...
- dinner at stammtisch or tamade..
- forget-me-nots & baby-breaths…
- schwarzwälder kirschtorte from hilton hotel…
- olympus digital camera [checked]
- backpack… 60L or more though
- backpacking trip to Europe, which will cost about 5000 bucks!!!
- change my spectacles frame [checked]
- watch ‘mamma-mia’…
- improve deutschsprache…
- brief von meiner gästfamilie
- card from nitya in Nottingham… [checked]
- nokia 6100
- luke & yunling to do well for their exams..
- luke to win his biking competition...
- see all of them grow up... elizabeth, daniel, bernice, grace lee, grace tan, magdalene, isabel, jacob, issac, chloe, celeste, clarence, charlene, samuel, adele, zekiel, joshua, david, marven, martin, maranda, jonathan, nicholas, shoupin, micheal, michelle, glenda, germaine, roshen, emma, zoe-ern... and many more...
- and many more wishes...
feeling happy [version 1.0.. surprise!!!]
just came back about 3 hours ago... from sally's and kurt's place... it was really nice.. i don't exactly know how to say it.. going to keep it short and sweet here... but it's really nice... and they really shocked me...
we had baked baby potatoes for appetiser.. with mayo and spring onions... it's pretty exciting.. reminded me of the baked potatoes back in Deutschland, except that that was with sour cream... sally was telling me how the potatoes have been scrubbed and baked at 220 degrees, so they are bacteria-free... next was the pizza that kurt has been working on since i got there.. and oh my gosh, it was actually my birthday pizza!!! cool right?? with 2 candles and this little card on it!! the pizza has a crust that was flown in from overseas and the fillings, such as chicken bits, pineapples, capsicum, mozeralla cheese... and all are really good.. schmeckt gut!!! sehr spannend!!! oh yes, dessert was mango pudding with real mango bits in there!!! *faints*... think my diet plan will not work out at all..
spent some time catching up with sally and all.. discussing about issues and all.. how the past year has gone by and what i've learnt and all.. that is, if i did learn anything at all.. yupz, if you still don't know, sally has been my mentor for the past 2 years... and there's a lot of things that i really want to tell her and all.. but it's not as easy as it seems to be... lost of words here and some of you will understand why... it's really really nice of both of them... and i'm going to miss them...
we had baked baby potatoes for appetiser.. with mayo and spring onions... it's pretty exciting.. reminded me of the baked potatoes back in Deutschland, except that that was with sour cream... sally was telling me how the potatoes have been scrubbed and baked at 220 degrees, so they are bacteria-free... next was the pizza that kurt has been working on since i got there.. and oh my gosh, it was actually my birthday pizza!!! cool right?? with 2 candles and this little card on it!! the pizza has a crust that was flown in from overseas and the fillings, such as chicken bits, pineapples, capsicum, mozeralla cheese... and all are really good.. schmeckt gut!!! sehr spannend!!! oh yes, dessert was mango pudding with real mango bits in there!!! *faints*... think my diet plan will not work out at all..
spent some time catching up with sally and all.. discussing about issues and all.. how the past year has gone by and what i've learnt and all.. that is, if i did learn anything at all.. yupz, if you still don't know, sally has been my mentor for the past 2 years... and there's a lot of things that i really want to tell her and all.. but it's not as easy as it seems to be... lost of words here and some of you will understand why... it's really really nice of both of them... and i'm going to miss them...
Sunday, September 19, 2004
oktoberfest..
heute fängt das OKTOBERFEST in München an!!! es dauert für 16 tage bis 3rd oktober 2004!!! schade!!! ich bin jetzt nicht in Deutschland sonst werde ich zu das fest gehen!!! ich habe das bier vermisst!!! jawohl!! erdinger… aber das fest präsentiert von paulaner…hmm, alles schmeckt sehr gut… das wetter, die essen, die stimmung… alles, besonders feste und karnevals!!! ich hoffe, ich kann hin sein aber es ist sehr teuer!!! ein flugschein kostet mehr als $1000… ich habe kein geld!!! schade… sehr schade!!!
dann habe ich auf der zeitung gelesen:
OKTOBERFEST
Binge on Bavarian wheat beer, make merry with your buddies and feat on sausages and pork knuckles at the annual Oktoberfest, billed as the biggest here in five years.
Swiss Club, Swiss Club Road, 10am, Tickets: $15 for child under 12 and $30 for an adult for buffet spread (pay $40 for a booklet of drink coupons)
schade!!!! ich hätte einen sehr beschäftigten tag und wär müde!!! sehr schade!!! es ist nur heute!!! ich möchte erdinger bier von cold storage gourmet kaufen weil ich meine eltern es probieren möchte aber es ist sehr teuer auch!!!
argh!! liwei fliegt nach Deutschland für eine woche!!! ich bin eifersüchtig auf ihn aber… aber… schade!!! hmm.. es ist okay… nächstes jahr…
dann habe ich auf der zeitung gelesen:
OKTOBERFEST
Binge on Bavarian wheat beer, make merry with your buddies and feat on sausages and pork knuckles at the annual Oktoberfest, billed as the biggest here in five years.
Swiss Club, Swiss Club Road, 10am, Tickets: $15 for child under 12 and $30 for an adult for buffet spread (pay $40 for a booklet of drink coupons)
schade!!!! ich hätte einen sehr beschäftigten tag und wär müde!!! sehr schade!!! es ist nur heute!!! ich möchte erdinger bier von cold storage gourmet kaufen weil ich meine eltern es probieren möchte aber es ist sehr teuer auch!!!
argh!! liwei fliegt nach Deutschland für eine woche!!! ich bin eifersüchtig auf ihn aber… aber… schade!!! hmm.. es ist okay… nächstes jahr…
i'm a believer [funky christian version]
I thought God was nothing but a fairy tale
Good for someone else but not for me
Sin was out to get me, that's the way it seemed
Disappointment shattered all my dreams...
Then I saw His grace, I'm a believer
Not a trace of doubt in my mind
I've been changed I'm a believer
Jesus is a walking by my side
I though love was mine just for the taking
But even more I took the less I got
Not afraid of sin now
Jesus broke the chains
Not the more I give the more I'm changed
Then I saw His grace, I'm a believer
Not a trace of doubt in my mind
I've been changed I'm a believer
Jesus is a walking by my side
You could fine His grace
Come be a believer
Not a trace of doubt in my mind
You can change
Be a believer Jesus will walk right by your side
Good for someone else but not for me
Sin was out to get me, that's the way it seemed
Disappointment shattered all my dreams...
Then I saw His grace, I'm a believer
Not a trace of doubt in my mind
I've been changed I'm a believer
Jesus is a walking by my side
I though love was mine just for the taking
But even more I took the less I got
Not afraid of sin now
Jesus broke the chains
Not the more I give the more I'm changed
Then I saw His grace, I'm a believer
Not a trace of doubt in my mind
I've been changed I'm a believer
Jesus is a walking by my side
You could fine His grace
Come be a believer
Not a trace of doubt in my mind
You can change
Be a believer Jesus will walk right by your side
Saturday, September 18, 2004
mid-autumn festival..
haven't seen them for a really long day... and i finally successful got myself out of the house after much delay and all... met cherie and szemin at es teler 77 for lunch.. ate pretty interesting stuff.. after that, we went to takashimaya to sample the mooncakes and all.. this is the 1st time i've ever put mooncake in my mouth.. well, i know i eat a lot but there's a lot of things that i do not eat as well..
left at about 430pm to go to st. margs for my church's mid-autumn fest.. did a major jaywalk in order to catch my bus and all!!! goodness.. got there just on time... anyway, uncle edwin paired me with joan for this particular game... titled bowling.. yes, i know the name is really boring but it's an amazing game!!!
it's bowling with a twist!!! instead of having the chance of having a bowling ball and pins, you have a coconut [with its juice extracted] and 6 filled mineral water-bottles!!! oh yes, and the starting point varies with age.. the younger you are, the nearer you get to stand towards the 'pins'... the older you are, the further you are... this is so cooL!!! seriously!!! you may say that i'm nuts and all.. but doing games for kids is one of the best things that can happen to you.. indeed it is tiring.. you have to maintain an energy level that is higher than that of the kids.. you have act like a kid and yet to be loud at the same time.. but seriously, it's one of the stuff i really enjoy doing and all...
oh yes, the reward of the game is a character stamp... erm, it's the ones that we used to buy when we are kids.. and we would get so excited over the different types of characters and all.. that's exactly how the kids were feeling today.. daniel kept coming back to our station and was going on about how he will aim at my head instead... isabel assumed the role of picking up the 'pins' and the 'ball' after each throw... *laughs*... had to coax some of the kids.. and teach them how to play and all.. right!!!
and boy, it was hot!!! not just from the prespiration but also from the heat that was radiating from the brick parade square... my goodness!!! after the whole game, joan and me just stood there, trying to feel the breeze on our faces... but it's really minimal.. she was commenting on how people might mistake us as worshipping God... but think that it would be really good thing to do as well!!!
anyway, we finally 'closed shop' at 7pm.. by then, the coconut has suffered pretty severe injuries... jawohl!!! es ist KAPUTT!!! du kannst nicht es noch benutzen!!! yah.. so we must call it quits for the game.. both of us were so tired.. must be all the jumping and running around.. the hype we tried to create for the kids.. gosh, must be the age man!!!
and i've got another children event tomorrow morning.. hmm, i think i better start conserving energy now.. else tomorrow, will bound to lose out to the kids in terms of energy...
left at about 430pm to go to st. margs for my church's mid-autumn fest.. did a major jaywalk in order to catch my bus and all!!! goodness.. got there just on time... anyway, uncle edwin paired me with joan for this particular game... titled bowling.. yes, i know the name is really boring but it's an amazing game!!!
it's bowling with a twist!!! instead of having the chance of having a bowling ball and pins, you have a coconut [with its juice extracted] and 6 filled mineral water-bottles!!! oh yes, and the starting point varies with age.. the younger you are, the nearer you get to stand towards the 'pins'... the older you are, the further you are... this is so cooL!!! seriously!!! you may say that i'm nuts and all.. but doing games for kids is one of the best things that can happen to you.. indeed it is tiring.. you have to maintain an energy level that is higher than that of the kids.. you have act like a kid and yet to be loud at the same time.. but seriously, it's one of the stuff i really enjoy doing and all...
oh yes, the reward of the game is a character stamp... erm, it's the ones that we used to buy when we are kids.. and we would get so excited over the different types of characters and all.. that's exactly how the kids were feeling today.. daniel kept coming back to our station and was going on about how he will aim at my head instead... isabel assumed the role of picking up the 'pins' and the 'ball' after each throw... *laughs*... had to coax some of the kids.. and teach them how to play and all.. right!!!
and boy, it was hot!!! not just from the prespiration but also from the heat that was radiating from the brick parade square... my goodness!!! after the whole game, joan and me just stood there, trying to feel the breeze on our faces... but it's really minimal.. she was commenting on how people might mistake us as worshipping God... but think that it would be really good thing to do as well!!!
anyway, we finally 'closed shop' at 7pm.. by then, the coconut has suffered pretty severe injuries... jawohl!!! es ist KAPUTT!!! du kannst nicht es noch benutzen!!! yah.. so we must call it quits for the game.. both of us were so tired.. must be all the jumping and running around.. the hype we tried to create for the kids.. gosh, must be the age man!!!
and i've got another children event tomorrow morning.. hmm, i think i better start conserving energy now.. else tomorrow, will bound to lose out to the kids in terms of energy...
sleepless night
eunice is right about this.. you can't sleep after going to the airport... and no matter how hard you try, that image you saw at the departure gate just can't be erased away...
just came back from youth leaders' meeting too.. my 1st time at the meeting.. previously, can't attend any coz the meetings always clash with my german lessons and whatever else... anyway, it was really an experience there.. whatever that has been said, is filled with honesty and all.. there's no need to hold back anything.. just do it man...
anyway, just want to share about something that has really touched my heart a lot... or rather, it has always been something close to my heart... many times, i really wonder why her, of all people... how we tried time and time again... nick once told me not to give up but just press on... i honestly admit, i almost gave up..
until this year... there i was, at the corner, trying to recover from my own shock, my own disappointment and tears.. she came up from behind and just hugged me... i never told her this, but i was really encouraged by her action... just that simple hug, it really warmed my heart.. that hug really meant a lot to me...
noelle once asked me, given the choice to choose either her or another of my dear gals to mentor, who would you pick?? before i could answer that question, she said this, i know the answer already... and i know she really did... everyone close to me knows how much she matters to me and all...
deborah shared on how much she has changed... how cheery she is and all!!! it really warms my heart... it just made me think back of those times but who cares about that?? she brightens up a lot... and at this rate, she can become my sunshine too!!!really want to thank the Lord for this... it really means a lot to me...
well... bet she will read this some day and just want to tell her this... hey babe, i'm really proud of you.. to see you smiling so much has always been my wish.. sometimes, i really wish i could help you in everything, but God has shown me that i am not able to do so... and to see that you are having so much fun in school, in cell, in church, it really warms my heart and all... and most of all, to see how you have grown over this year, it's really encouraging.. i really want to thank God for 'putting' you in my life!!! hope that the week has gone well for you... and remember that God is ever faithful yah?? meanwhile, don't have too many late nights and do remember to kick some ass when doing project work yah?? thanks for being such a wonderful gal to me... love ya loads!!! oh yes, mafia roxs.. =)
just came back from youth leaders' meeting too.. my 1st time at the meeting.. previously, can't attend any coz the meetings always clash with my german lessons and whatever else... anyway, it was really an experience there.. whatever that has been said, is filled with honesty and all.. there's no need to hold back anything.. just do it man...
anyway, just want to share about something that has really touched my heart a lot... or rather, it has always been something close to my heart... many times, i really wonder why her, of all people... how we tried time and time again... nick once told me not to give up but just press on... i honestly admit, i almost gave up..
until this year... there i was, at the corner, trying to recover from my own shock, my own disappointment and tears.. she came up from behind and just hugged me... i never told her this, but i was really encouraged by her action... just that simple hug, it really warmed my heart.. that hug really meant a lot to me...
noelle once asked me, given the choice to choose either her or another of my dear gals to mentor, who would you pick?? before i could answer that question, she said this, i know the answer already... and i know she really did... everyone close to me knows how much she matters to me and all...
deborah shared on how much she has changed... how cheery she is and all!!! it really warms my heart... it just made me think back of those times but who cares about that?? she brightens up a lot... and at this rate, she can become my sunshine too!!!really want to thank the Lord for this... it really means a lot to me...
well... bet she will read this some day and just want to tell her this... hey babe, i'm really proud of you.. to see you smiling so much has always been my wish.. sometimes, i really wish i could help you in everything, but God has shown me that i am not able to do so... and to see that you are having so much fun in school, in cell, in church, it really warms my heart and all... and most of all, to see how you have grown over this year, it's really encouraging.. i really want to thank God for 'putting' you in my life!!! hope that the week has gone well for you... and remember that God is ever faithful yah?? meanwhile, don't have too many late nights and do remember to kick some ass when doing project work yah?? thanks for being such a wonderful gal to me... love ya loads!!! oh yes, mafia roxs.. =)
Wednesday, September 15, 2004
crap!!!
crap... i don't know how to say this exactly... but crap!!!! I FEEL LIKE CRAP TODAY!!!!! i don't know what happening anymore... i don't know what's happening in school, in my life, in everything... it just feels so detached.. so distance... crap!!! this feels totally crap... even trying to be numb to everything, doesn't help anymore... crap, i just don't know at all...
Sunday, September 12, 2004
diet..
seriously should do something to my diet.. getting a little too overboard and it's starting to scare me... as all of you should know, i absolutely love eating and especially since i got back from Deutschland, i've been looking out for really exciting food... well, at least exciting in my dictionary... and not to mention that my stomach has grown to the size of a cow... that i can't believe as well, but it's true!!!! this is so embarrassing...
everyone says that i don't look my weight but it's the wonders of fashion!!! i'm so smart!!! erm, i think i better stop before it all gets to my head... but the point is, i should at least work at trying to adjust my weight a little.. towards the part that tends towards zero, not the other end...
so surprised that i actually resisted macs this afternoon, but i came home to my jafa viennese and gummibärchen instead.. which is not exactly a really good thing too... *laughs*... oh man, i'm so going to miss marks and spensers!!! oh no!!!! hmm, shall save that for next year when i go on a spree!!!
made a bet with my friend about our grades and if i lose, i will have to travel to the east to go try all the good stuff over there... oh no, at this rate, i don't think my aspiration towards weight reduction will ever come true!! *laughs*... just ask celia, florence, tim and all from dinner yesterday night...
everyone says that i don't look my weight but it's the wonders of fashion!!! i'm so smart!!! erm, i think i better stop before it all gets to my head... but the point is, i should at least work at trying to adjust my weight a little.. towards the part that tends towards zero, not the other end...
so surprised that i actually resisted macs this afternoon, but i came home to my jafa viennese and gummibärchen instead.. which is not exactly a really good thing too... *laughs*... oh man, i'm so going to miss marks and spensers!!! oh no!!!! hmm, shall save that for next year when i go on a spree!!!
made a bet with my friend about our grades and if i lose, i will have to travel to the east to go try all the good stuff over there... oh no, at this rate, i don't think my aspiration towards weight reduction will ever come true!! *laughs*... just ask celia, florence, tim and all from dinner yesterday night...
Tuesday, September 07, 2004
so full!!!
haven't ate so much for such a long time.. for starters, i had 2 lunches today... one at engin and once again, engin food still taste like crap... and the second one was at arts... which is so much better...
went with my parents for dinner at parkway thai... oh man!!! i fainted at the amount of food... but it all just tasted so good... the best thing?? thai green chicken curry!!!! *phew*... i absolutely love it man.. oh yes, there's basli leaf hot plate beancurd... chicken wings with minced meat stuffings... vermicelli with prawn.. oh man, it's so awesome... well, a little too spicy for me.. but once in a while, all in the name of food...
confession: i have the stomach of a cow...
oh oh, had a visit to marks and spensers too.. oh man!!! sehr spannend!!! bought quite a bit of stuff during this little trip of mine... i don't think you have ever seen someone so excited over buying stuff from marks and spensers... hahha, but there's me!!! =)
went with my parents for dinner at parkway thai... oh man!!! i fainted at the amount of food... but it all just tasted so good... the best thing?? thai green chicken curry!!!! *phew*... i absolutely love it man.. oh yes, there's basli leaf hot plate beancurd... chicken wings with minced meat stuffings... vermicelli with prawn.. oh man, it's so awesome... well, a little too spicy for me.. but once in a while, all in the name of food...
confession: i have the stomach of a cow...
oh oh, had a visit to marks and spensers too.. oh man!!! sehr spannend!!! bought quite a bit of stuff during this little trip of mine... i don't think you have ever seen someone so excited over buying stuff from marks and spensers... hahha, but there's me!!! =)
Monday, September 06, 2004
fic pd treat!!!!
i can't believe this but i'm still feeling super bloated from dinner...
had our fic pd treat today... but i wasn't there for the debrief coz of deutschunterricht... anyway, we went to holland village for dinner... not that exciting coz we ended up in NYDC... rather, it was the company that made it interesting...
darren disappeared after the debrief... marc/ tammi/ lishan/ elaine/ ken/ liruo/ desmond/ wanling & me occupied and set our weights in NYDC... we had too many menus with us.. * laughs*... it was so weird trying to collect all the menus together... tammi/ lishan/ marc & wanling are on some weird diet.. all they had were desserts and floats... as usual, lishan had to eat something chocolatey but lo and behold, her ice-cream flavours were not available... elaine and me had some mushroom pasta from the oven-baked specialties collection!!! sehr spannend.. mine was called destiny's child!!! ken had some spaghetti, liruo had lasagna... i can't exactly what did desmond eat though... marc commented on how much elaine and me could eat... well, i must say, i can eat more than elaine man!!! anyway, elaine and me shared this really exciting chocolate dessert... cookie monster mudpie!!! oh my gosh, it's just so sinful... but i still prefer that from coffee club express... elaine and me were trying so hard to tempt everyone else but it didn't work...
afterwhich, we actually went to wala-wala for live music!!! *woohoo!!! ben, i finally went to wala-wala!!!!* it's pretty cool.. but the music was just too loud... and the place was filled with smoke!! and it's not exactly a very wise move to go with all your books and all... but see, we came from school so you can't blame us for the mugger-look!!! marc ordered some beer but seriously, after tasting erdinger, everything else just fall flat... anyway, we put in 2 song requests... 'she will be loved' by maroon 5 & 'the reason' by hoobastank... but elaine/ tammi & me did not stay to hear them coz we had to go home... to do assignment... to sleep...
had our fic pd treat today... but i wasn't there for the debrief coz of deutschunterricht... anyway, we went to holland village for dinner... not that exciting coz we ended up in NYDC... rather, it was the company that made it interesting...
darren disappeared after the debrief... marc/ tammi/ lishan/ elaine/ ken/ liruo/ desmond/ wanling & me occupied and set our weights in NYDC... we had too many menus with us.. * laughs*... it was so weird trying to collect all the menus together... tammi/ lishan/ marc & wanling are on some weird diet.. all they had were desserts and floats... as usual, lishan had to eat something chocolatey but lo and behold, her ice-cream flavours were not available... elaine and me had some mushroom pasta from the oven-baked specialties collection!!! sehr spannend.. mine was called destiny's child!!! ken had some spaghetti, liruo had lasagna... i can't exactly what did desmond eat though... marc commented on how much elaine and me could eat... well, i must say, i can eat more than elaine man!!! anyway, elaine and me shared this really exciting chocolate dessert... cookie monster mudpie!!! oh my gosh, it's just so sinful... but i still prefer that from coffee club express... elaine and me were trying so hard to tempt everyone else but it didn't work...
afterwhich, we actually went to wala-wala for live music!!! *woohoo!!! ben, i finally went to wala-wala!!!!* it's pretty cool.. but the music was just too loud... and the place was filled with smoke!! and it's not exactly a very wise move to go with all your books and all... but see, we came from school so you can't blame us for the mugger-look!!! marc ordered some beer but seriously, after tasting erdinger, everything else just fall flat... anyway, we put in 2 song requests... 'she will be loved' by maroon 5 & 'the reason' by hoobastank... but elaine/ tammi & me did not stay to hear them coz we had to go home... to do assignment... to sleep...
Saturday, September 04, 2004
after a while...
after a while, you learn the subtle difference
between holding a hand and chaining a soul.
and you learn that love doesn't mean leaning
and company doesn't mean security,
and you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts
and presents aren't promises,
and you begin to accept your defeats
with your head up and your eyes open
with the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child,
and you learn to build all your roads on today
because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans.
and futures have a way of falling down in midflight.
after a while, you learn..
that even sunshine burns if you get too much.
so plant your own garden and decorate your own soul,
instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
and you learn that you really can endure...
that you really are strong.
and you really have worth.
and you learn and learn...
with every goodbye you learn.
~ Veronica Shoffstall
between holding a hand and chaining a soul.
and you learn that love doesn't mean leaning
and company doesn't mean security,
and you begin to learn that kisses aren't contracts
and presents aren't promises,
and you begin to accept your defeats
with your head up and your eyes open
with the grace of a woman, not the grief of a child,
and you learn to build all your roads on today
because tomorrow's ground is too uncertain for plans.
and futures have a way of falling down in midflight.
after a while, you learn..
that even sunshine burns if you get too much.
so plant your own garden and decorate your own soul,
instead of waiting for someone to bring you flowers.
and you learn that you really can endure...
that you really are strong.
and you really have worth.
and you learn and learn...
with every goodbye you learn.
~ Veronica Shoffstall
Friday, September 03, 2004
ein guter tag... except for the snails...
this is really terrible... due to the poor lighting of the area, i nearly stepped on 2 snails... yup, full grown ones.. plus there was a huge crowd there, which made walking even harder!!! reminded me of all those gatherings and parties at alex's place... coz once, i really did squash the really small snails in his garden... it was an accident!!!!
anyway, had a pretty interesting session at cell today... we had invited guests!!! uncle jeam & aunty jean... pastor nick & aunty jasvindar.. both couples to share about their courtship, marriage and life after getting married... pretty good advices here and there.. learnt abt some of their secrets and all.. was pretty amusing.. esp uncle jeam!!! he's so different from that uncle jeam we see on sundays.. telling the kids not to run when walking down the aisle... trying to get people to fill the seats in front... yup, really nice to have them with us today... and he added this last statement for the guys... "if you are in the wrong, say i'm sorry.. but when you are right, just shut up!!" to everything, prayer is important... and hear what the Lord has to say and what He has planned for you..
oh yes, we celebrated joanne's and josh's birthdays too... banana chocolate cake with cookies & cream ice cream!!! spannend arh!!! eunice and me had this big scheme to go collect the cake and the ice cream from the pantry on level 3.. well, joanne thought both of us had stomachache together... *laughs*...
anyway, had a pretty interesting session at cell today... we had invited guests!!! uncle jeam & aunty jean... pastor nick & aunty jasvindar.. both couples to share about their courtship, marriage and life after getting married... pretty good advices here and there.. learnt abt some of their secrets and all.. was pretty amusing.. esp uncle jeam!!! he's so different from that uncle jeam we see on sundays.. telling the kids not to run when walking down the aisle... trying to get people to fill the seats in front... yup, really nice to have them with us today... and he added this last statement for the guys... "if you are in the wrong, say i'm sorry.. but when you are right, just shut up!!" to everything, prayer is important... and hear what the Lord has to say and what He has planned for you..
oh yes, we celebrated joanne's and josh's birthdays too... banana chocolate cake with cookies & cream ice cream!!! spannend arh!!! eunice and me had this big scheme to go collect the cake and the ice cream from the pantry on level 3.. well, joanne thought both of us had stomachache together... *laughs*...
Wednesday, September 01, 2004
lunch at nus arts canteen... eunice and me had school, while william was on course at engin fac... noelle came to pay us a visit... it was really nice to catch up and all... and of course, eating lunch as well... we ate apple salad, minced-meat meepok, seafood noodle... filling enough to last the whole afternoon through.. yummy..
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