looking back at 2004

can't believe the year just flew past like that.. come to think about it, it's been 10 years since my parents first drove up to different parts of malaysia... KL, penang, pangkor island, melaka... from the time when i can still fit comfortably in the backseat till now being a little too big... and this time round, i did what i do best again.. eat, sleep, shop.. oh man, i really love the food, i can eat it all day round, esp. from that coffee shop near the hotel... and yes, i discovered that the secret receipe cakes at jalan bintang taste so much better than those in singapore!!! oh man!!! had kiwi paradise and mango delight!!! oh man!!! schmeckt gut!! my parents were pretty surprised that i could eat so much!!! and i really mean a lot...

anyway, that's not the point of this post.. it's time to sit down and start thinking about this year.. how it has been and all... the highs and lows..

- happy moments...
1. went to Deutschland and back.. loves the place and still love the place.. love the people, the food, the landscape.. the feeling of running through the streets at 1130pm though it's cold.. the feeling of walking alone along the streets at night or in the park, with the sun shinning on your back.. guess it's just the feeling of leaving everything behind and running free...
2. lost some friends but made new ones as well...
3. shopping.. watched all the movies i can during the holidays..
4. hanging out with my girlfriends... catching up with the guys, making sure that they are still alive and kicking..
5. my cell people kinda opened up more, which is really good.. coz we grew up with each other, yet we don't exactly know much about each other..
6. learnt more about some people, though we practically seen each other through childhood and teenage blues.. and supporting each other..
7. rag comm, esp all the memories, sweat and friendships.. and definitely: the non-stop laughter!!! fic was cool... got the chance to do orientation again, but not as a freshman... nothing beats being a freshman... when you get all the fun, sun, sand and sea..
8. decorations.. jawohl!!! sally's wedding and the christmas party too!! sehr spannend!!!
9. cap made a little improvement though it's supposedly to be still quite in the pits..
10. sep planning..
11. talked more with some of my cn6 classmates, esp the scholars, though half the time, i was bugging them with questions on like 'why like this and not like that??' and 'you mean like that can be done??'.. yeah.. but i learnt a little about them.. that they are human after all.. and not as high and mighty as we think they are.. anxieties and all.. just wanna thank God for the opportunity to be able to do so...
12. seeing the kids running around, making so much noise.. and me, an old folk, trying to match up to their level of energy...

- not-so-happy moments..
1. got my first big zero in a test, which eventually affected my grades.. turned my life topsy tursy then.. but He was and still is my Lord my God.. that was the message that kept coming to me during that period..
2. it took me a year to realise what He was trying to tell me though it was so obvious.. but me, being that stubborn, refused to hear and see what He has for me and chose to do things my own way.. took quite a bit before i finally realised the need to surrender and let go.. think in the new year to come, this will still be a struggle of mine.. and think i'll still choose to take the hard way but i'm gonna try and learn to let Him take over instead..
3. was thinking about the ministries that i'm serving in.. and i'm wondering how much am i doing.. am i blessing others or am i sapping out of others instead?? i really need an answer on this and i'm really confused... sometimes, i feel like i'm being blessed more than i am blessing others.. but that's not how it should be.. or is it??
4. learnt that i'm not so patient after all...
5. the coming of age.. less than a year to the big 21..
6. learnt that when some doors are closed, they should remain closed.. attempts should not be made to open them again.. coz they kinda opened the floodgates of memories as well and bring along a jumble of emotions in the process..
7. my walk with Him is still not good... and worse of all, i'm still procrastinating.. i really want a closer walk with Him..
8. more than often not, i focus on the downside rather than the upside, even though there is obviously more ups than downs.. but i'm just do overwhelmed by the downs, that i'm blinded to everything else..

and definitely more.. but i just can't remember them.. sometimes, no matter how crap everything has been, there's always stuff to thank Him for.. and in the end, He has still bless me in many ways, whether i see them or not...

"count your blessings, name them one by one, and you’ll realized what the Lord has done... count your blessings, name them one by one, and you’ll be surprised with what the Lord has done..."

the dash

i read of a reverend who stood to speak
at the funeral of a friend.
he referred to the dates on her tombstone
from the beginning...to the end.

he noted that first came the date of her birth
and spoke of the following date with tears.
but he said what mattered most of all
was the dash between those years.

for that dash represents all the time
that she spent alive on earth.
and now only those who loved her
know what that little line is worth.

for it matters not, how much we own;
the cars...the house...the cash.
what matters is how we live and love
and how we spend our dash.

so think about this long and hard.
are there things you'd like to change?
for you never know how much time is left.
you could be at dash mid-range.

if we could just slow down enough
to consider what's true and real
and always try to understand
the way other people feel.

and be less quick to anger
and show appreciation more
and love the people in our lives
like we've never loved before.

if we treat each other with respect
and more often wear a smile...
remembering that this special dash
might only last a little while.
so when your eulogy is being read
with your life's actions to rehash,
would you be proud of the things they say
about how you spent your dash?

christmas this year..

1. the birth of my Saviour...
something that we all tend to forget.. forgetting that this is the true meaning of christmas.. but it's this gift that brought me where i am today...

2. ay 2004/2005 semester 1 results..
it didn't help that the results were released on christmas day at 3pm.. slapped right in the middle of the day... right!!! well, inside my small world, i thought that i did pretty okay but outside my small world, my grades are pale in comparison... but i'm really thankful for whatever i've gotten... i mean, look at me during the semester and the exam period.. some of the grades were really like, 'look what you've done.. so this is what you deserve man'.. knowing me, i'll never be satisfied no matter what.. but i'm really thankful.. this would never be possible if He wasn't in the midst of it all...

3. sep application..
yusen said that christmas came early for me this year.. maybe it did.. but thanks be to God for the whole journey.. it has been topsy-turvy but it really made me realised that my own effort has to be put in too, and not just rely on others to get stuff done.. and more importantly, committing to Him and let Him present His plan.. on the bus home that day, i was telling Him, it is tough but if that's what You have planned for me, let it be then.. grant me the strength and grace to go through it all.. then again, He has His plans which i do not know.. all i know that He will provide me with the grace and He has the best in mind..

let's just say, that's the 3 main issues for me this christmas... anyway, it's boxing day today.. yeah, but don't go around boxing people up.. be it in a box or into any other shapes... okay, bad joke... but somehow, i met so many people from primary school today.. it started with my principal, miss dorothy ho.. yeah, i was pretty tempted to greet her.. but then again, shall keep quiet one corner... and then, there's my primary 5/6 classmate, who disappeared to international school in sec. 3: ryan tan.. jawohl, he still looks the same.. guess, we all never changed much.. he's now at nottingham doing business.. cool, he's this only singaporean in his course.. right!!! and he was going on about.. erm, i shall hold my peace here..

saw luke this afternoon after such a long time.. and zhonghan too!!! oh my goodness, they kinda grew during this period again... sheesh, the power of puberty and growth spurts.. i feel old suddenly.. yeah, and i met up with nitya.. she's back from nottingham too!!! for christmas holidays but will be flying back this weekend coz school starts early this semester.. cool, spent a great time catching up at scotts pastamania... got ambushed by this guy who claimed that he has done eyebrows trimming for really famous people before and wanted us to allow him to trim ours... enjoying the christmas lights one last time at both takashimaya and tangs, before the management removes everything... oh, we both agreed that sometimes, it's better to have mono-colour decorations.. just like takashimaya's.. this year is white and last year was red.. wonder what will be next year's?? and we saw some performance of a guy jumping through rings of fire... walked through kino and borders, looking at pretty paperchase items, pretty calendars and 2005 organisers, which we deemed too pretty to be used... oh yes, hugo boss at takashimaya has 'merry christmas' written in german!! so exciting!!!

oh yes, i'm really bad with gifts and all.. so i rather write to people.. but i'm so sorry that i've not write to.. will try and attempt to succeed to write them by the next sunday!! to all my friends, especially those who are gonna turn 21 next year, if you really want a gift, as long as it's not a car or a house or anything too extravagent, you are welcomed to tell me what you want.. seriously!!!! oh yah, i just saw on the news about the presence of tsunamis in the indo-india region.. kinda reminds me of miss wong again... all her crazy tactics and all.. oh wells, some memories which will never be the same again though...

thanks to the great help of my wasserfrau, this is the product of my blog.. but there's really nothing i can do about the fonts... it's part of the template.. anyway, nic said that my blog looks super happy.. hmm, what can i say?? i really love butterflies.. and the templates which i really liked were either black or white.. yeah, there are just some things which one prefers to forget or to put aside and move on, but somehow, circumstances do not allow that to happen or the person just walked right back into the other's life... sigh..

been pretty klutzy for the past few days.. been dropping those powdery and cakey stuff.. like, my blusher when applying make-up last week and just now, the tailor's chalk in my sewing kit.. yeah, the floor looks pink coz of the powder... sheesh!!! oh, i just saw a really pretty white moth fluttering in my room, but i have no idea where it is now...

true meaning of christmas..

with the frenzy of life and all the tv ads and everything, the true meaning of christmas is more than often, forgotten.. i have to admit, even i forget it some times and get into the mad rush with the rest of the world... here's something i received this christmas:

as you well know, we are getting closer to my birthday. every year there is a celebration in my honour and i think that this year this celebration will be repeated. during this time, there are many people sjopping for gifts, there are many radio announcements, tv commercials, and in every part of the world everyone is talking that my birthday is getting closer and closer.

it is really very nice to know, that at least once a year, some people think of me. as you know, the celebration of my birthday began many years ago. at first people seemed to understand and be thankful of all that i did for them, but in these times, no one seems to know the reason for the celebration.family and friends get together and have a lot of fun, but they don't know the meaning of the celebration.

i remember that last year there was a great feast in my honour. the dinner table was full of delicious foods, pastries, fruits, assorted nuts and chocolates. the decorations were exquisite and there were many, many beautifully wrapped gifts. but, do you want to know something? i wasn't invited. i was the guest of honour and they didn't remember to send me an invitation. the party was for me, but when the great day came, i was left outside, they closed the door in my face... and i wanted to be with them and share their table.

in truth, that didn't surprised me because in the last few years, all closed their doors to me. since i wasn't invited, i decided to enter the party without making much noise. i went in and stood in a corner. they were all drinking; there were some who were drunk and telling jokes and laughing at everything. they were have a grand time. to top it all, this big fat man all dressed in red wearing a long white beard entered the room yelling ho-ho-ho! he seemed drunk. he sat on the sofa and all the children ran to him, saying: "santa claus, santa claus".. as if the party was in his honour.

at 12 midnight all the people began to hug each other.. i extended my arms waiting for someone to hug me and... do you know... no one hugged me. suddenly they all began to share gifts. they opened them one by one with great expectation. when all had been opened, i looked to see if, maybe, there was one for me. how would you feel if on your birthday, everyone shared gifts and you did not get one? i then understood that i was unwanted at that party and left quietly.

every year it gets worse. people only remember to eat and drink, the gifts, the parties and nobody remembers me. i would like this chirstmas to be such that you allow me to enter into your life. i would like that you recognise the fact that almost 2000 years ago, i came to this world to give my life for you, on the cross, to save you. today, i only want that you believe this with all your heart...
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here's wishing you all a great CHRISTMAS... even as you celebrate this joyous occasion and soak in the yuletide mood, take time and remember the true meaning of christmas... frohe weihnachten!!

acjc class of 2002 reunion @ hard rock cafe

yeah.. another ac gathering.. joshua is gonna go on and on about how crazy i am about that school.. right, but i ain't gonna care about that coz it's the company that mattered most... yeah.. finally seen people that have disappeared and gone mia for a really long time.. seen the guys with their hair grown back and going on and on about their ord dates... seen the girls back from wherever they went, now back for christmas or vacation...

well, whatever it is, i must say that it's the company that was worth everything... yeah, even seeing 2sc4 again was great... yuping's skirt is so pretty, then again, she got that from down under.. there's eugene and me, both stuck in engin and kicking up a big fuss.. well, at least me.. haha, oh, bingquan's gonna join us in that fac too!!! libin's back from down under.. as usual, what a babe she was and still is.. sharon's forever blinking in photos!!! vincent looked funky with that new hairdo.. patrick's going to smu... and the most embarrassing thing, i forgot zhijie's name.. all i could remember was how we addressed him in class but his name, i just can't remember... this is so embarrassing.. maxie is still that style.. waiyong, lisa and bel who was busy the entire night.. oh man, it was so great to see everyone again.. though not the complete class but it was still great...

and of course, the usual suspects of my usual gang... yeah, edmund who went missing and finally appeared.. saw andrew again, who went crazy during bingo.. yeah, but we are still missing people... people who are overseas or stuck in camp.. hicks.. but it was great seeing everyone again.. and now, they are gonna ditched me and go enjoy themselves on new year's eve and all... hicks!!

yupz, a time of catching up though my table literally had to shout above the noise to be heard.. yeah coz we'll seated right in front, next to the band playing on stage... but what have i to complain about if it's good music!!! that i don't exactly mind.. if it's bad music, oh please, just spare me..

another end to yet another year... just thinking how faithful He is to see us through and bring us all together once again.. well, there's always acjc and acs international for us to help out at the beginning of next year... but guess it will always be different from when we were still students of the school..

technische universität hamburg-harburg

"Your appeal for Hamburg (TUHH) is successful.
Kindly proceed to faciliate the other required documents to complete your SEP application."

those of you who knew what happened last weekend, it wasn't like this... you know what, i was literally crying.. for help, for grace, for anything... i really wanted to go to this school.. maybe coz it's the easy way out, but the main reason was because of the electives... it was tough trying to pick up and move on after last thursday to map for karlsruhe.. actually, i am really lost for words now..

the same msg came back to me.. even through noelle's testimony, kelvin's christmas card.. let go, surrender and trust in the Lord... again and again, these words kept coming back throughout the whole year.. but it's just so hard and He has to remind me again and again through all that is happening... then, there was kids' church on sunday about our God being Jehovah Jireh, the provider... one of the object lessons was about how much more the Lord will provide for us than we ask for... another object lesson was about how the Lord provides even for the flowers in the fields... the exact verse that winnie wrote at the beginning of the year...

"do not worry about your life, what you will eat, or about your body, what you will wear... consider how the lilies grow. they do not labour or spin. yet i tell you, not even solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these... Father knows that you need them. but seek His kingdom and these things will be given to you as well."
Luke 12:22,27,30-31

i am still lost for words... sometimes, we just can't thank Him enough for all that He has done.. actually, no matter how much we thank Him, it is still not enough... for all that He has done, is too much and overwhelming..

OCEAN'S TWELVE

i finally caught this movie... the sequel to ocean's eleven... for once, a sequel that is cleverly and beautifully done!!! oh man, i really love the actors.. indeed, they make stealing looked so glamourous and wonderful... once again, i was blown away by this movie coz the plot is just so smart and intelligient... well, it's really not what you would expect it to be... and julia roberts and catherine zeta-jones look just absolutely gorgeous!!! brad pitt and george clooney are just brilliant.. well, these men age like fine wine... schmeckt gut!! not to mention that the soundtrack was actually really entertaining too!! yeah, can't post the picture, so shall just write about it!! *laughs*... go watch the movie!!!

have a different christmas!!! maybe a little too much flash for the photo... oh yes, this has been the event that occupied my entire week... but didn't blog about it yesterday night coz was too tired and had other stuff to settle too... by the way, this is deborah and my master piece!!! TADA!!! hmmm.. starting with the photo frame painting.. i did the minimal since my art is more than cannot-make-it.. to shopping for decor stuff and finally to doing up the decors itself.. *phew*... what a week... tiring for quite a number of us, but it was really fun doing this stuff all over again.. deb was like, it's been a long time since we all did this... the words that you see here gave us an extremely hard time, including a night of maintainence work.. but with the artistic eunice at work, everything worked out brilliantly!!! the stars were beautifully done and well-maintained by suren and lixian!!! so pretty!!!

and what you see here, are stuff which i managed to dug up from 4 years ago.. thanks to the help of emily ang and hoongwei... eunice beautified the banners with the stars.. actually, on friday night, i was so convinced that i was unable to finish cutting the letterings for the theme and sticking them to the coloured papers and throw in the snow spray, the cellophane paper and the tea-lights... there's like so much to do... but thanks be to God, for He was in this the whole time... we all managed to finish everything.. deb, eunice, noelle, tim, jo, adeline, daowen, amelia, josh, colin, sean, wei, an, jimmy, florence, huiran, emily lee & emily ang and a million and one whom i may have forgotten here... but a big thank you!!!

here's some of us... missing a number of people though... one of the few photos that i took during the event... adeline was complaining how she was the only one not in black.. oh yes, you can see a little of the snow spray from here too!! reminds me of the misfit eunice and me had... oh yes, the pretty templates are part of sally's collections... which i accidentally destroyed... i mean the templates which we cut, not the original!!! *phew*... sat with eunice and huiran during dinner.. in the end, eunice and me were trying to entertain ourselves... and the best part was, we were seated in the middle of everything, so the object in our direct vision, was the theme of the whole event... both of us felt quite sad at that point, like, that's how our evening will be.. sigh... *laughs*... chills, trust eunice and me to do stuff to entertain ourselves... =)

i cut my hair!!!

yeah, i did cut my hair but i don't exactly look that different.. i mean, with that boring hairstyle of mine, how different can i look?? but i did make that thick broom thinner and shorter... and great, now it looked even more messy but if i didn't cut it, i will start having split ends.. well, that's according to what the hairdresser said, who kept going on about how dry my hair is and how i should condition it and all.. blah blah blah...

anyway, you know how people always say that, the only reason that will make a girl cut or restyle her hair, it's due to some major event that happened.. and usually it's either the girl has just gotten attached or has just broken up with her other half... if that's what you are thinking, it's nothing of that sorts...

what i really did think about was, how this whole year has been... all that has happened and taken place... as the hairdresser was cutting my hair, i was just thinking of all that changed or have not changed.. be it me or the people around me.. the experiences.. the joys and all.. the silly and stupid things that i did.. somehow as i watched my hair fell to the floor, i was like, let everything that has happened, fall off as well and start the new year on a brand new slab... it was like some sort of relief and release... but get what i mean??

then again, i can't exactly phrase how i felt, so that would explain why you don't understand what i just said... yeah, but i kinda looked a little hideous now.. *laughs*... need to try and manage my hair a little... jawohl!! 16 days to the end of the year...

sun shines after the rain...

well, that's how it was like in the afternoon... it was pouring but after that, the sun was shining after the rain was over... met daniel at my estate though coz he was here with his brother to play lan!!! sheesh, this seems to be the only reason why anyone would want to visit ginza... diao!!!

anyway, cherie came over to my place this morning.. missing szemin though... and we were watching 'goodbye lenin'... it was a really awesome movie, funny too.. and yes, it's german... picked it up during my vcd spree on wednesday evening... oh yes, i bought a french movie too.. but it was really morbid and warped.. oh well, trust the europeans to come up with the weirdest movies... really enjoyed these movies though coz it's different from that of hollywood movies...

it's just really funny how, sometimes the stuff that you think about becomes reality.. yeah, i was just thinking about all the relatives which i've not seen since my cousin got married in may, which was before i left for deutschland... erm, we had a family gathering some time before my exams, but i did not go.. so period, i've not seen people for a really long time... oh yes, i met my cousin, felicia on the bus on the way to town... a wonderful bus ride catching up with her and all... oh, she's one cousin whom i really enjoy the company loads...

anyway, went to town earlier to catch my brother's performance at youth park.. and boy, i was more than traumatised by the lead... have absolutely no idea what the world he was trying to do but his mannerism was.. well, it left me tramautised and more than speechless so go figure...

well, then met my cell group for dinner at marche.. was a pretty wonderful dinner... we had so much fun talking and catching up... bumped into kelly koh and my chem engin friend.. oh man, we ate so much that we felt so bloated... hoongwei was going on about how he can be a rubbish bin... and yes, wei and jo were pitting their chinese skills against each other... eunice was trying to contribute too... it's really funny...

we finally decided to leave at about 845pm... we went walking along orchard road, staring at the christmas lights and decorations... coz deb and me are trying to search for our friend named inspiration, to help us with the decorations for the christmas gathering next saturday... oh yah, we are hatching a plan to get as much as done as possible... hahhaha, to be revealed next time...

erm, my blog is turning from a food blog to a movie blog... anyway, i really think that this movie is great.. not to mention that it featured my favourite actor too!!! nicholas cage.. oh man, who can forget his role in 'face/off'!!! anyway, caught the sneak preview today... i'm blew off by the movie man!!! oh yes, spent a long time at hmv too.. and i just totally splurged on vcds... both german and french!!! gonna start watching movies which i've not watched and rewatch those which i've already watched... oh man!! i'm still so charmed by nicholas cage!!!

okay... so this is a totally-girl movie, but i liked it still and i saw the trailer for yet another wonderful movie... spent the day with my class.. small group but fun enough... from stuffing ourselves with so much food to trying to dig stuff out of each other... to the bus ride back to town and finally for bridget jones.. had a really great time with all of them.. we'll like saying how dim sum has become an annual session for our class!!! gonna miss that if exchange comes into the picture.. *laughs*... to all of you who went today, thanks loads for all the fun!!!

shopping time & my shot at publicity...

hmm.. unfortunately, i woke up late and got to green pastures late.. the 2nd time of the week.. what an embarrassment... even better, i forgot to cut my nails again.. i was so scared that my nails will hurt the kids... but thanks be to God, nothing of that sorts happened!! *phew*.. stayed and watched cartoon with the kids though... they were watching 'tom & jerry'.. reminds me of childhood days.. that was my favourite cartoon too!!! =P

went shopping with my mum today and gave the german film 'the miracle of bern' a miss.. SCHADE!!! i really wanted to watch that show.. but chills, gonna try and convince people to download and burn the movie for me!!! bwahahhahaha, i'm so evil..

and yes, i bought loads of stuff today... paul was going on and on about my dressing but i'm so sorry, i really love what i wear.. i really love stuff at G2000, U2, iora, mango, zara etc... shoot me man!! but i simply love them and i really want to own a suit.. but there's no need for it now.. in the same way, how yiting wants to own this dress we saw in basel when she gets her 1st paycheck, i want to own a good suit too!! oh yes, and i fell in love with a really pretty pink knee-length skirt today... and i bought it!!! yupz, but to see that on me, please pray for a miracle...

had so much fun shopping.. and i learnt about the wonders of credit/ debit cards.. how different cards give you different discounts at different outlets and all... uob is giving really good offers, both in the fashion line and the food line.. and the best part is, both appeal to me!!! unfortunately, i can't get my hands on a citibank card, coz so many outlets are actually in partnership with the bank!!! *faints*...

marks and spensers did not appeal much to me though.. maybe coz most of the stuff ain't on offer... and i must say this, the clothes there are wonderful and pretty!!! oh man, black is the colour man but somehow, i'm buying less of black and more of other colours... which is a good thing, yet not at the same time... coz i really love black!!! oh wells.. and yes, it's a wonder what you can find at og too!!! go discover it yourself!!!

finally had a really good talk with my parents regarding sep... so far, i've mapped modules for one semester, and most likely winter semester, for hamburg... as much as i really want to go to karlsruhe, i think, eventually, i'll just stick to hamburg... and no more uk for me too... gave my parents my stand, my point of view and now, they are even considering the option of 'what if i'm gonna be in hamburg for a year'... and you know what?? that was exactly what i needed.. i needed support.. my parents' support... sep will be equal to nothing without their support.. i know that it's not a total 100% yet but at least, it's skewing a little more to that side... and i really don't know how to say this, but it's really Him at work... really... my entire possible-sep-journey is completely in His hands... and i have to learn to leave it in His hands... all i can do is to ask for grace and for Him to reveal His plans to me.. thank you Lord... so much more to do for sep application, but i'm just taking a step at a time, pushing and stretching whatever boundaries that may possibly be ahead of me...

oh yes, i'm finally done with the powerpoint presentation for our christmas youth gathering... worked on it till late but somehow ain't totally satisfied... feels like something is missing.. and i've yet to fit the song in with the presentation... and have to present it tomorrow morning during service.. hopefully it's good enough.. before i forget, loads of thanks to yingchao & my wasserfrau, especially in helping me find those photos... else i'll still be googling them out tonight!! to those who had to put up with my panicked status, thanks loads too.. and of course, for your feedback.. there's animation in the powerpoint now!!! i felt like some arts lecturer, playing around with the functions of powerpoint!! *faints*...

shall stop procrastinating and start working on the music.. but more importantly, i want to know if it's how He wants it to be like...

hmm... shall let you all know about my secret... they are the LOVEs of my life!!! anyway, this is allison's class at my saturday-kindergarten.. think they are still in nursery class and boy, they are really cute!!! oh man, spent both thursday and this morning with them... helping them to prepare for their annual concert but as usual, i'm always late.. sheesh, so embarrassing!!! though it was only 2 short days, but i really enjoyed myself loads being with them... goodness!!! and yes, kids being kids... they can be angels yet, terror at times... but i still love them!!! *muazk*.. oh oh, see that girl in the middle?? erm, i can't exactly remember her name but she's really adorable!!! really love her loads.. and for goodness knows whatsoever reason, she was happily whacking me on thursday morning!!! but chills... anyone below the legal age of 12, is permitted to bully me...