crap!!!

crap... i don't know how to say this exactly... but crap!!!! I FEEL LIKE CRAP TODAY!!!!! i don't know what happening anymore... i don't know what's happening in school, in my life, in everything... it just feels so detached.. so distance... crap!!! this feels totally crap... even trying to be numb to everything, doesn't help anymore... crap, i just don't know at all...