end of AY04/05 semester 2

well, before i launch into my post.. it's gonna be long so read it at your own risk yeah!!

so here i am, at the end of the 2nd semester of AY04/05, which signifies the end of my 2nd year in nus and the last day of april as well... and well, in a way, the last exam i'll be having in nus for the next 1 year to come..

loads actually happened over the past 3 weeks.. a series of unfortunate events actually... but let's start with the happy events first.. well, started really late for this exams, i mean, the studying process.. but thank God for meiyan & faith.. they really sustained me throughout the whole exam.. not only by joking, once again, that i'm an 'engineer'.. but gossiping and talking rubbish.. having lunchs and dinners together at none other than the deck, the so-called funky name of the arts canteen.. and taking care of me when i fell sick.. really, dunno what i will do if they are not around.. and for going so early just to 'chop' seats at home-base... erm, we changed base from that of last semester.. we even launched a mini-competition with EC & company.. but meiyan's graduating this semester and i'll most likely and very likely be leaving for exchange next semester.. i'm gonna miss those exam days in the central library with the both of them.. but faith, i'll be back in year 4 and we repeat this whole process all over again yah?? must remember me yah!!!



oh yah, here's something that faith wrote for me, on the day which we titled 'self-deception day'.. meiyan's one was all about econs and tr modules.. faith was about, none other than FNA!!

and yes, there's EC & company.. whom we and many other people felt that he was actually pretty hot.. but that's about it.. made friends with a few of the people from the group.. really nice people but majority of them are year 4s, so they will be gone after this semester... it's so funny coz after a while, we kinda realised who sits where and all.. so when both parties 'chop' seats in the morning, we tend to vie for the same seats.. so that's how the competition came into play.. and of course, the hours meiyan, faith & me spent gossiping about gen pi chong 1 & 2.. *laughs*.. just for the laughters..

and of course, joanne!!! she's there everyday.. even on a sunday afternoon!!! great having you as a study partner too!!! but then again, i see you practically every week.. but studying together was a change..

and definitely, all the stray chem engin students around the entire library.. including my brother, liwei.. but nope, he's not a chem engineering student.. slacker and easier life over at mech engin dept!!! *humph!!!* and not to forget, my classmates who are around the library.. cheewee, guangpeng, linchun..

lastly, lisa and ben.. i finally got to know ben, though he's actually been here on exchange for a year!! oh man!! gonna go disturb him in berlin when i get there!! *laughs*.. both of them are really hardworking exchange students and both of them got so stressed this exams.. it was really nice studying with them.. but both of them are leaving soon to tour southeast asia, then to australia, where lisa is gonna work while visiting her extended family and ben is gonna work on his research project.. before flying home some time in august to canada and germany respectively.. *laughs*.. i was telling ben that he should buy souvenirs with the merlion picture on them, so he will remember singapore!!! *laughs* and lisa will stare at me, really appalled..

and now with the unfortunate issues.. yours truly fell sick last saturday and went to a lousy doctor in the evening.. see why i don't really like to go to the doc?? so wasted saturday and sunday trying to recover.. and yes, i had the ultimate, crappiest and craziest exam timetable:

26/4: CN3121 Process Dynamics & Control [evening paper]
27/4: CN2116 Chemical Kinetics & Reactor Design [morning paper]
28/4: CN3122 Mass Transfer Operations [afternoon paper]
28/4: GEK1001 Place, Environment & Society [evening paper]
30/4: LSM1401 Fundamentals of Biochemistry [afternoon paper]

that's how crazy my timetable was.. and i actually stayed up on wednesday night to study till 4am for both cn3122 & gek1001.. in the end, nothing for gek went into my head.. so right after the cn3122 paper, i got into a panick state and was trying desperately to cramp something into my head.. but when i was doing the paper, i really wondered if i did write something sensible with concepts in it.. oh sheesh!!! well, my brain was more than fried that day..

when i finally decided to start on my lsm paper.. guess what happened to me?? i suffered from a really terrible headache yesterday evening and had to disrupt meiyan during her study for her paper on saturday to take care of me.. i was just thinking like, how much more unfortunate can i get man!! but really thank God for meiyan, my parents and arpan, who took care of me during this period.. getting me warm water, fetching me home and all.. thanks loads..

you know what?? i've not felt so freaked out and terrified of exams for a really long time.. i mean, there are times when i just don't feel so good.. but not as bad as this time round.. but there has always been a sustainer and support for me and that's the big guy up there.. though i've not been spending a lot of time with Him and i really want to but somehow i am never disciplined and strong-willed enough to do that.. i really feel so disgusted with myself that He is always the constant and i am always the one running to Him, crying for help, only when trouble hits home..

anyway, came back home this afternoon to deposit all my stuff before going off to meet the class for dinner.. on the journey to orchard, i don't exactly know why, but just feeling a little weird and nostalgic.. maybe coz i'm going on exchange?? and town just felt so foreign.. it's as though it's on the other side of the universe.. went to zara but the season's collection ain't that fantastic.. went down to my favourite haunt: kinokuniya.. just trying to soak myself in books and all.. reading lonely planets, check out what's new in the fiction corner.. see if any chinese comics or books fancied me..

dinner was at heeren márche.. goodness, should have done a market survey before deciding to eat there.. there's now a new rule stating that everyone has to spent at least 10 bucks.. and this is a move to promote better customer service.. right!! had to convince the management to allow lisa to come in without the card, coz it's a really ridiculous system man!! we met a whole bunch of chem engin students there too..

popped a little surprise for peijia.. hopefully it was 'surprise' enough.. gonna go think of what present to get her.. so sorry that it's gonna be a belated present!! opps!! then took some silly photos.. guessed that recently, i'm really into the mood of phototaking.. maybe coz i'm leaving soon, so wanna carry the memories with me over there.. well, i'll definitely miss cn6, no matter how crap chem engin is.. and i mean, everyone in class..



we hung around till about 10pm, before leaving orchard.. which is actually pretty early for me coz i don't usually go home till about 11 plus.. anyway, and so now start my 3-months holidays.. actually it's longer than that coz i'll be missing next semester in nus.. gosh, better go figure out some way to settle all my exchange stuff and all.. and i wanna work too.. one reason is to kill time, another is to earn at least some money for my exchange.. gosh, i'm gonna end up spending so much!!

little girl..

when the little girl grew up, she learnt that she has wings.. she learnt that her wings have grew stronger too but they were not seasoned enough to carry her through all the rain and storm and withstand the strong winds.. silly enough though, she still wanted to go out into the rain and give everything a try.. maybe she will learn that out there, it's not so nice after all.. that where she's from is much better... but when she is out there, she will have to learn things that were not taught to her.. she will have to learn to swim and keep her head above the water..

STRESSED!!!!!

it must be the name..

nothing more to be said.. just opening closed doors..

SNOW.WOLF.LAKE

even if i go broke.. i will still want to watch this musical again!!! i don't care even if i'm being an ultimate spoilt brat here, who is supposed to be studying.. SUPPOSEDLY!!! but i really need to proclaim my love for it..

been having an on-off 'affair' with this musical for the past 8 years... and yes, i still have a huge affinity for it... 8 years ago, i paid a heck load for it though i understood not a single word said or sung.. and now, it's gonna be repeated in mandarin... oh man!! what's the better thing?? it's gonna be coming to singapore!!! oh man, i hope to be able to catch it before i leave..

honestly, i will still pay whatever amount, that i deemed reasonable, to watch this musical all over again.. another item to my wishlist!!! here's the 2005 publicity poster.. SNOW.WOLF.LAKE...

sunny!!! happy 21st birthday!!

yeah... finally seen this bunch of folks.. just that it kinda felt a little weird and lost.. maybe coz i've not seen them for ages.. even if it's for a month, i consider that ages... and of course, there's those folks whom i have not seen for more than a month, just didn't get the chance to catch up and talk and all.. just feeling a little disappointed that i didn't get to catch up with this particular friend.. oh wells.. goodness knows...

thank God for sunny's party.. got to see people again.. and can you believe that the guys have ord-ed and are now talking about uni life?? shaun has already started school at nanyang poly!! he's gonna read physiology.. smart dude!!! good choice!!! jooteng, koksoon & sunny are thinking of which halls to stay in during their 1st year.. fluctuating between ke7 & kr.. convincing them to come kr instead.. *kendrick, you better treat me for this!! free publicity some more!!!*..

thanks to lloyd, got a ride till somewhere along the aye.. and guess what koksoon was doing during the ride?? he was counting the number of friends who's professions will be useful to him in the near future.. goodness!!! think age is catching up and time is flying too fast..

had a lousy test this morning, which marked the completion of another module.. stupid experiments and MATLAB!!! yucks!!! i absolutely and still totally hate programming.. at least SIMULINK ain't that bad.. just drag diagrams and input the functions.. and what's even better, the experiments which we printed were totally unhelpful to the test questions!!! oh sheesh!!! waste money to print the reports man!!! but the joke of the day was, how i managed to convince guangpeng & kianyaw to go on strike and not study!! woohoo!!! *applause for me please!!!*

on a sidenote: i attended my last lecture in nus for this semester on friday morning.. after the lecture has ended, kelvin su was like, did you realise that this is the last lecture we will be attending in nus coz we are leaving for exchange next sem?? i suddenly realised that i will miss everything at nus.. but come to think of it, i really don't exactly know what will i do and how will i react, if i don't go for exchange..

sheesh, exams are a week away and here i am, still blogging!! oh no..

LAG3203 Gruppe 2

ich möchte alles auf deutsch schreiben aber mein deutsch ist nicht so gut.. ich habe viele zu sagen.. über der kurs, über die kommilitonen/-innen, über herr chan, über der spaß, über die gedächtnisse.. heute war es die letzte vorlesung und ich habe jetzt viele gefühle, aber ich weiß nicht, wie zu sagen... ich werde alle vermissen.. sowieso habe ich einiger zu einigem von ihnen zu sagen, aber alles auf englisch..

to eufo: viele dank für alles.. ich meine, vom ersten semester bis heute bist du eine sehr gute kommilitonin.. ich hätte viel spaß mit dir in deutschland und während der zeit an der uni.. du bist sehr fließig und ich muss mehr von dir lernen.. *i give up*.. it was great working with you all this time and thanks for putting up with all my nonsense.. till hamburg..

to weiyao: in a way, you and liwei have been a real support for me in many things.. sometimes just wonder what will i do, if i didn't have you guys to complain to.. come, let's try and convince you to go to heidelberg but then again, do what is best for yourself.. thanks for everything and remember to take your labcoat back yah!!

to mein onkel: you are one of those, who's in the same class as me for only 2 semesters but thanks to freiburg, got to know you folks better.. thanks for being another whom i can complain to and it was great having ya around.. and though it's not easy.. follow your passion and who knows... =P

to samuel: you are another freiburger.. and honestly, it was great talking to ya all these while.. realised that there's much to learn in this life than the present.. bis münchen..

to leeying: so nice to have ya in the same class for 4 semesters, but guess only talked to you more since last semester.. you really have a really big heart and can never forget your patience with our craziness during the baking session.. thanks for making german class so fun and memorable for me.. vielleicht können wir in tübingen treffen.. wenn ich nicht nach singapur zurückkomme..

to khim nyang: the wonderful and master baker of our pretty small but disastrous baking session.. and yes, you can really bake.. great having ya in the class and for being part of the fun.. vielleicht kannst du den oreo-käsekuchen noch mal backen?

to xiaoyan: can't believe that we are in the same tutorial and lecture group for 3 semesters.. it was great working with ya for the oral last semester.. i'll definitely go visit you when i go down to china..

to junfu: didn't really talk to you till this semester, coz you developed an affinity for my 'mistress'.. thanks for all the fun and humour in class.. your presence was really great.. have fun in kalsruhe, where i initially planned to go.. but anyways..

to charles: you always say 'ich verstehe bahnhof' and i guess, from you, all of us caught on the phrase.. thanks for all the fun that you have added to the class.. have fun in germany this coming holidays..

to sheauling/ weeshan/ leo/ bengkeng/ kheng khoon/ molly/ jamie/ julius/ suminah: thanks for everything too.. i guess, the company really made the class different and much more fun.. thanks for all the fun.. and guess, i'll miss having evening classes for a long time to come.. will blog more and write to you all another time... must study.. erm, hopefully...

no title..

just felt like blogging.. sheesh, i should get out of these modes and start studying man, despite still having 2 tests next week.. and i mean, to start studying for the exams!!! yes, the exams!!! the crappified and irritating exams are back.. and gosh, i have zero understanding of what has happened for the entire semester.. i'm so gone case... and i have to stop thinking about nonsensical stuff..

referat preparations are crappified too.. i don't like this at all... i feel so lost in everything and anything.. it doesn't help that my table's in a mess too.. sheesh!!!

just attended a princessy-birthday.. yeah, for once, not a 21st party but a 5th birthday party.. goodness, the birthday girl even had a Hi-5 candle!! gosh, reminded me of all my birthday parties when i was still a kid.. and the princess is none other than charlene!!! my really sweet and pretty niece!!! and yes, according to charlene, i was supposed to be princess jasmine's fat and short father from the cartoon, aladdin.. erm.. *scratch head*

my aunts were like, so where have you disappeared to?? you have not been clocking attendance at family gatherings.. erm, too many 21st to attend?? at the mention of 21, they were like, so you are turning 21 already!!! and before i forget, happy birthday weijie!!! yeah, attended her party last weekend, with sheauling, weishan and cuixia.. missing some folks from freiburg too..

if you are wondering why am i up so late, coz i was cracking my brain, doing the nus feedback.. and i realised that, the more modules you have, the more feedback you have to complete.. sheesh, why can't it just become another feedback system, with all modules summarised into one input and have the output amplified into each individual response.. of course, the feedback comes with a selection option, where one can choose which he wants to edit, if necessary... oh crap, what did i just type here..

prof. p. r. krishnaswamy & prata...

disclaimer: there's absolutely no relation between the subjects.. just a coincidence that i decided to talk about the both of them at the same time.. and it's just a coincidence that both subjects popped into my head on the same day...

prof. krishna.. lecturer of the module CN3121, which we all re-titled as TL3121.. coz unfortunately, his accent is just too thick for many of us to comprehend what he was trying to say.. webcasts are the best examples.. after watching them, they leave you wondering if you have just attended a tamil class or english class...

but he's one really nice old man, who behaves and acts a little like a kid.. i know that this sounds psychotic.. but he really looks like a kid when he laughs and smiles.. sheesh!! sometimes his actions are really able to make you melt and i guess, he did just that today..

it was the last lecture for the module and he was saying all that he had to say to us before ending the class.. well, it just felt so genuine.. his love for the subject and the students.. it just felt different from other semesters.. for once, ever since i started school at nus, i felt that there are lecturers who indeed care for the students, despite having spent only one semester with them.. perhaps there is really still hope in this over-commercialised institution, where no one seems to care that much...

lisa said that for the very first time as well, she's actually feeling sad that the semester is coming to an end.. and she really loves krishna a lot.. she was like, i'm so about to cry when he said that to us.. oh wells, to everything, there has to be an end.. here's the webcast to the last lecture.. check it out under lecture 22.. watch the last 4 minutes though coz that's the best part of it all...

had dinner with cell for once, in a really long time.. there's no lsm lecture and german lecture was postponed.. so i'm free!!! oh wells, due to poor time estimation, i was late!!! thank God for suren, who gave me a lift.. oh yah, we ended up at upper and lower pierce for prata, thosai, mutton soup... the attendance was clocked by su, jo, eunice, weihao, benett & sean..

anyway, had a really exotic prata - mushroom egg prata and an usual plain prata.. which was sufficient to floor me.. well, maybe i've gotten over that period of unusual stuffing.. was supposed to share the cheese thosai with eunice but i was more than bloated to eat anymore.. plus, it was too cheessy for me.. anyway, we had so much food on the table, it looked... *speechless*...

due to the bloatedness, we decided to take a walk along the road.. from one end to another.. found the entrances of lower pierce reservoir but they were completely unlit.. a little freaky though.. and suren was like our mother hen.. taking care of all of us.. oh yah, we went past this house owned by caucasians.. oh man, the house is so pretty and it follows that of an open-concept!!!! the residents were watching tv when we went past them, so we all waved at them and they waved back!!! *laughs*...

despite it being a cool night, we were sweating after the walk.. so we went down to the japanese restaurant for ice cream.. *laughs*.. green tea ice cream... gulp!!! count me out please.. settled for a boring coke float.. but oh wells, i don't like green tea ice cream..

suren gave sean, jo, weihao and me a lift till bukit timah.. and guess what?? we saw bus no. 165!!! we were like, BUS!!!! thank God for cars and traffic lights.. we got off in time to get on the bus.. kinda reminded me that time when sean, jo and me were sitting at the bus-stop talking and when 165 went passed, jo and me just pointed at it and went 'ARGH!!!!'... that was last year man!! sheesh!! time flies...

prof. tan thiam chye

this is not the same prof. tan who have occassionally made an appearance on my blog... this prof. tan is my professor for one of my modules..

i don't exactly have a great affinity for him but just felt that he is a man of great experience and kind of thinks along the same line as me.. well, of course, he will not amplify his thoughts during the lectures, considering that webcast can be served as a form of evidence and blackmail.. the elders tend to share a little more about their life stories and sorts.. cool!! just thought that it was pretty surprising to find someone who has similar thoughts about the education system...

anyway, interest should never be converted into a subject.. when that happens, it kills the interest and any other form of love for it..

i bought the comic book approximately about 1.5 years ago.. sometime around the period when the movie was first released.. but it was shown on tv just this evening.. i'm not complaining but just felt that some of the characters were a little 'extra'.. but without the 'extra' characters, this will become some art-film..

hmm... it brought back some memories though.. got rid of some junk here and there.. high time not to think too much about irrelevant stuff.. es ist vorbei..

how time flies.. and here it comes...

hmm.. dedicating this post to one of my 'mistresses': xiaojun... my 'evil/good' twin: jasmine [we take turns to be good and evil]... meine 'in-search-for-good-food & lecker-männer' partnerin: yiting.. and to my many-years-older-but-4A-senior: minghui...

before i launch into anything here, let me warn you that this will be a really long post.. so if you don't wanna collapse halfway, you have been warned...

well, as the title suggests... it's pretty surprising how time slips away without us actually realising it.. just feeling a little weird, how approximately 10 months ago, we were having a truckload of fun on our immersion trip and now, we are all going off for our exchange... and yes, all 4 of them are flying off to deutschland tomorrow... xiaojun & jas are flying off in the morning to köln and heidelberg respectively while mingui & yiting are flying off in the evening to münchen and konstanz respectively.. hmm, gonna miss them all, especially those freiburgers... i mean, 1 month together in freiburg and 2 sems of german classes.. hicks.. well, soon it will be eufo, sam, rongjia, yuhan and me... and then majority of the rest for summer 2006..

spent wednesday evening with some of the freiburgers and one darmstadter... jas, xiaojun, weijie, sam, yiting, yuhan, minghui.. spent a fair bit of time deciding where to go and finally, we settle for holland village.. for katong laksa!! this is so funny, yiting bought food frm the noodle stall next to where we were.. well, we talked so much and ate so slowly, the stall closed before she could return her plate.. in the end, she left it by the stall.. remembered that we used to joke that sam's food will turn the coldest among all of us, coz he always have much to say.. but it's great talking to him.. guess experience in life does matter..

what we did next, took us an even longer time.. but finally we went down to coffee club express for desserts... well, muddy mudpie.. here i come!! shared that with yiting.. never fail to remind me of the eating experience we had at the freiburg-mensa.. for the love of food, burnt a hole in our pockets but it was worth doing so... gute essen sind nicht billig!! gonna miss having my eating buddy around, though we have not gone eating after we came back to singapore.. shared peach garden tea with xiaojun.. aber sie mochte es nicht... sie fand es sehr komisch.. jas and yuhan indulged on brownie with ice cream, while sam and minghui indulged in muddy mudpie too.. yiting had a pot of morning dew tea too.. and we finally went off at about 1130pm.. coz majority of them had german tutorial in the morning..

dann kam freitag.. der letzte tag, dass die vier in singapur waren... to give them a 'good' send-off, we had our semester test this evening.. which was a heck of a disaster.. aber es ist vorbei, ich werde es nicht mehr denken!!! had another truckload of fun at munchie monkey during stammtisch!! yeah, viel spaß... aber leider konnten xiaojun, jas & yiting nicht mit uns gehen, weil sie packen mussten... und die essen schmeckten nicht so good.. all that matters was the company.. oh, we had the company of the german exchange students with us too... played some really interesting german games... helped to clean out part of munchie monkey's kitchen.. broke the chilli pepper shaker.. and made so much noise.. it was a good end to the week though..

we finally said our goodbyes at 1030pm.. everyone was passing well-wishes to minghui, just in case we can't make it to see him off tomorrow evening.. don't think i can wake up to send jas & xiaojun off too..

to xiaojun, yiting, jas & minghui: have loads of fun.. and i'm sure you all will.. can't wait for my chance to go over.. but gonna miss you all esp if i have to leave before you all come back.. viel glück und viel spaß!!!


[had to shrink the photo but here's some of the freiburgers..]

on a sidenote, i met kelvin tang today.. haven't seen that guy for so long since the last combined mtg.. and he's gonna be councillor i/c... my goodness!! even i decided to retire for good.. but anyway, he has a really good reason to castrate someone.. no prizes for guessing it right.. but i just heard the most ridiculous thing... no offence, but 5 treasurers??? don't think there's that much to be done that will require 5 treasurers!! sheesh, even with what we had, there were only 3 and we did the job just fine.. i'm not trying to promote mine or anyone's working abilities but i just think that it's really erm.. *glurp*.. fayeth and me handled it just fine.. think one important element is the support that we all gave each other, though there were moments whereby we drove each other up the wall.. but all was well and i still miss them..

theresia!!! happy 21st birthday!!!

das referatsskizze.. kein spaß...

feeling a little groggy now.. been working on das referatsskizze.. crap, it's a heck load of work.. maybe should have listened to weiyao and start working on it since friday evening... thank God for eufo.. she did the part on the entire distillation process, which is the main focus of the referat, which is in about 3 weeks time..

anyway, i realised that i've forgotten bulks of my biology knowledge.. not exactly a good thing though.. and i'm so tired.. yawn!!! oh, before i forget, miss tan finally updated her blog!!! yeah, i was about to believe that she has vaporised but nope, she posted on her blog and replied to my comment... *laughs*... i really miss her though.. one of the sane people in this insane world of mine...

thumbs-up program & another birthday party..

woke up at what i deemed as an unearthly hour of 0630hr to go for this program at huayi secondary school.. yeah, felt pretty old there, esp. since there were facilitators which are from other sec. schs as well.. and the class which i was attached to comprised of sec. 1... the last bunch of sec. 1 which i saw and had contact with, are presently sec. 3 students... sheesh.. time flies...

a pretty fun bunch of kids that i was attached to.. chee peng came late and freaked the heck out of me coz i knew absolutely no one there.. despite me being pretty sociable, apprehensive is still present.. thank God for approachable facilitators.. but was there more as an observer than a facilitator... but i had loads of fun.. valid reason to account for the fact that i skipped pdc make-up lecture!!! *laughs*...

the program ran was actually on something which i've done many years ago.. that which brought back some memories.. pieces which i prefer to remember and pieces which i prefer to forget.. anyway, it was the D-I-S-C personality/ working style test.. yeah, did that test back in upper sec..

anyway, back then.. in descending order, here's my result: C-S-D-I
and now, in descending order, here's my result: C-I-D-S

hmm... it's not shocking, considering how much i've changed since sec. sch days... but just surprised that my S-component is pretty low now.. guess that i've just became more reckless and less stable.. more loud and less quiet... but i still do stupid things like, read the non-smoking sign in the lift while in the lift, [which is a typical trait of C-component]... and am so loud that i can be heard from a distance of more than 10 miles away, [which is typical of I-component]...

just wondering how i've changed over the years and pondering if it has been for the better or worse.. but given me a choice, i would rather be the person i am today...i will miss the stability that i once had but that does not mean that i do not have it now.. rather i have that extra thread of recklessness and loudness in me.. yeah, pak wing said he can hear me 10 miles away... so word of advice: run when you see me around, just in case i embarrass you.. just kidding.. i'm not so evil..

oh.. just an interesting observation: everyone thinks that i'm a teacher!!! oh sheesh!!! the 'cher' thing is a long-ago issue yah!!! humph!!! and once again, everyone was shocked to learn that i'm from the faculty of engineering... well, unbelieveable but it's true!!!

came home at about 3 plus to have lunch and to hitch a ride from my parents.. gave the family gathering a miss again.. for theresia's 21st birthday party!!! happy birthday!!! yeah.. and my so-called shopping trip was unfortunately cut short by rhys.. humph!!! like i said, shopping is a form of meeting civilisation for an engineer-wannabe!!! *laughs*... met many people whom i've not seen for a really long time, such as sunny/ andrew/ jooteng... it was great seeing them all.. and had such a great time catching up with alexis too...

oh yes, for once, the guys ain't talking about ns anymore!!! well, since some of them have already ord-ed... and are getting ready for uni-life.. yeah yeah!!! welcome to uni man!!! sunny and jooteng were discussing which hall to stay in.. or to rent an off-campus apartment.. it's just so weird.. hearing all these uni-stuff from them.. give it one semester, and they will forget the gals here man... wait, maybe even faster than a semester.. hicks... oh yah, sunny's gonna join the nus-family in the faculty of arts and social sciences.. cool!!! go rock nus dude!!!

oh yes, received a phone call from someone whom i've not seen for a really really long time and it was really great to hear from him.. yeah, got a call from my really-really-long-time-'brother', justin!!!! he is accepted by both the university of toronto & university of waterloo in canada.. dumb that nus rejected him.. but who cares.. go overseas!!! the experience earned will overwrite everything else.. and to add to that, he received some MVP award from microsoft.. erm, don't ask me what's that about.. but it's really cool!!! oh man!!!

before i forget, i got my mp3 player working.. pretty cool.. love it loads..

nichole nordeman - why

We rode into town the other day,
just me and my daddy.
he said I'd finally reached that age,
and I could ride next to him on a horse
that of course, was not quite as wild.

We heard a crowd of people shouting,
and so we stopped to find out why.
There was that man that my dad said he loved,
but today there was fear in his eyes.

So I said, "Daddy, why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why is He dressed in that bright purple robe?
I bet that crown hurts Him more than He shows.
Daddy please, can't you do something?
He looks as though He's gonna cry.
You said He was stronger than all of those guys;
Daddy, please tell me why.
Why does everyone want Him to die?"

Later that day, the sky grew cloudy,
and Daddy said I should go inside.
Somehow he knew things would get stormy.
Boy was he right, but I could not keep from wondering
if there was something he had to hide.

So after he left, I had to find out.
I was not afraid of getting lost.
So I followed the crowds to a hill
where I knew men had been killed,
and I heard a voice come from the cross.

And it said, "Father, why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why are they casting their lots for my robe?
This crown of thorns hurts me more than it shows.
Father please, can't you do something?
I know that You must hear my cry.
I thought I could handle a cross of this size.
Father, remind me why.
Why does everyone want me to die?
Oh, when will I understand why?"

My precious son, I hear them screaming.
I'm watching the face of the enemy beaming.
But soon I will clothe you in robes of my own.
Jesus, this hurts me much more than you know,
but this dark hour, I must do nothing,
though I've heard your unbearable cry.
The power in your blood destroys all of the lies;
soon you'll see past their unmerciful eyes.
Look, there below, see the child
trembling by her father's side.
Now I can tell you why... she is why you must die.

alles geht mir nicht gut...

ALLES GEHT MIR NICHT GUT!!! ich bin schlecht, ich mag alles nicht.. alles passiert nicht gut!!! pdc test, tutoriums, das wetter, meine gesundheit, besondes die mündliche prüfung... ganz sehr schlimm... ich finde, dass ich nicht gut für sie machen werde... ich weiß.. große angst.. ich habe zwei fragen falsch geantwortet.. argh!!! schlimm, schlecht...

viel stress mit viel zu tun.. aber ich finde, dass ich nicht genug zeit habe... ich weiß wirklich nicht, warum ich viel zu machen habe, aber es gibt keine erklärung.. ich bin sehr müde und ich brauche mehr pause.. aber keine zeit...

ich bin ein bisschen glücklich und ein bisschen unglücklich.. ich denke, dass ich verrückt werde.. jawohl... vielleicht ist es der grund für meine probleme.. hicks.. kann jemand zu mir bitte erklären? meine welt ist zu klein aber ich habe viele viele.. deswegen ich nicht alles verstehen kann... jawohl, ich verstehe bahnhof.. es kommt darauf an?? ich hoffe, dass es die situation ist..

vielleicht glaube ich die redensart, "kommt zeit, kommt rat" nicht...

we have moved!!!

and yes we did!! we finally did.. K.I.D.S CHURCH - kids in divine service.. has finally moved from the ground level of green pastures to the 2nd level!!! with air-con and storage cupboards, which will really help us save the extra work of moving stuff every 3rd sunday of the month..

yeah, though i've not been exactly taking a big role in KC recently, but i just really love KC every month.. like i've said before, i really wonder if i've been blessed more than been blessing the kids.. yeah, i feel like a kid.. doing all those kiddy actions with the action songs and shouting at the top of my voice, attempting to sing during praise and worship.. then trying to ra-ra up the kids for games.. and for once, i felt a strain to my voice.. our voices are too enclosed in the new place, so we can't exactly hear ourselves and really had to shout...

anyway, watched lord of the rings - the fellowship of the ring again.. part 2 is aired tomorrow.. reminded me of those folks whom i first watched it with.. with rhys trying to explain the whole story to me, coz i watched the two towers before watching the fellowship of the ring on vcd at biaoda's house.. steph and jooteng were there too.. remembered that we had to ban rhys from eating the pizza first, though he was really hungry.. *laughs*.. else there would be nothing left for the rest of us..

and right before the last installment - the return of the king, came to the big screen, was having revision session with adeline at her place.. we watched from 3 plus till 10 plus in the night.. to add to that, we were watching the extended versions of both!!! and when mrs fong opened the door, we were spooked coz we switched off the lights in her room and had the dvd-vcd player turned to max. volume.. yeah.. kinda miss her and haven't seen her for so long.. and guess it just feels a little distant.. oh wells..

just visited alwyn's blog.. saw all the wonderful and brilliant photos taken during his cycling trip.. reminds me of what luke will do too.. go cycling, together with his slr.. taking photos along the way.. guess that's what a lot of us will like to do.. i will want to do that too but i can't cycle and all i can do is, walk.. but given singapore's weather, spare me please.. yeah, i can sweat like crap just by walking to nus... sheesh!!!

finally!!! i've seen civilisation.. and i'm attempting to have a life man!! been working on my human geog project and finally it's OVER!! i'm so more than relieved when it was officially completed.. quite an adventure doing the project.. and i hope it will be fine... been stuck in the school library for the past 3 days of my life.. just for the pdc test this morning, which was an ultimate disaster... so much for sleeping on average 4.5 hours per day and falling asleep during lectures...

so... maybe it was good that i went for ben cheah's birthday yesterday!! oh man, though ben did not answer my calls so i had to call rhys, in order to contact ben.. and though i had to figure out how to get to his estate.. but poor ben was getting stone-drunk by his ns friends, afterwhich he got thrown into the pool.. weird bunch of people though.. well, at least he got to cut his cake, unlike ken.. oh wells, i'm just glad that i went for it.. missed the folks so much.. haven't seen some of them for more than 3 months!! sheesh!! see what nus has done to me... oh, ben, happy 21st birthday!!! =)

muendliche probepruefung was an ultimate disaster.. sheesh, to think that the real thing is next wednesday!!! panick state again!!!

met a friend, whom i have not seen for quite some time and to think that i'll get to meet him man!!! anyway, met haoyi and his girlfriend, laura, when i was walking to coronation road to take public transport to orchard.. in the end, they gave me a ride to newton mrt.. anyway, this charismatic dude has matriculated into smu, together with lionel, lloyd, sunny, edmund, ben chia, andrew and whoever else.. goodness, sounds like another acjc community populating the campus... but then again, sunny, lloyd and him, all can't exactly make up their minds if they wanna stay here or go over to the states to study.. oh wells, whatever the decision is, guys, have loads of fun wherever you are!!!

anyway, spent the evening with kelvin li, dwi & juline.. watched the best movie i've watched so far for the year 2005..



haven't laughed so hard and so much for a very long time.. but the movie was good.. at least i could understand it better.. well, there's an ending.. and there are some truths in the story.. about guys, girls, love, relationship... but then again, like i was telling dwi, movies usually just show the surface of the whole situation.. may be a world of difference in reality... arpan said this movie is suitable as a 'date' movie.. so to all my guy friends out there, go bring your girlfriends to watch this movie, if you have not already done so...

i was just thinking that if i were to watch this movie with the rag comm ppl, guess we would dominate the theatre with our laughters, considering that we can go on laughing for an hour non-stop.. yeah, miss those folks too...

by the way, did i mention that i'm pretty good at reading some people's body action?? jawohl!! i am.. *laughs*.. come ask me if you wanna know what i am talking about here.. coz i think i'll get killed if i do publicly announce the issues here.. anyway, nitya got my present!!! *phew*.. was so worried that i've sent it to the wrong address..

think i'm gonna go catch up on sleep.. there's american beauty on channel 5 but i've watched that movie before.. it was good!!! yeah, enjoyed it though the content was a little warped and disturbing..

anyway, before i go off to sleep.. 2 more announcements to make...



1. this charming-looking mp3 player above.. it's now mine.. and this is the exact colour which i've bought.. or rather i got my mum to go help me purchase it since i had school yesterday.. oh man, but don't exactly have the time now to check out on how to use it and all... my desktop is still not up and that's where all my songs are...

2. i bought a new pencil-case.. yunling was appalled when i told her that my maroon tropicana life one has lasted me for 4.25 years.. and now, it's this lila pencil case with netting.. yeah, i can even stuff my calculator inside... jawohl.. zu gross!!!

Life is not measured by the breaths we take but by the moments that take our breath away.

let her go and let her fly..

"Congratulations! You have been selected by the Faculty of Engineering for the student exchange programme [SEP] in academic year 2005/6. You have been assigned to the Technical University of Hamburg-Harburg...."

so it's finally here... i finally got my approval letter.. but why am i still not contented?? that excitement, that joy, that anticipation... somehow has fizzled out.. maybe coz it's due to that extensive waiting period to hear from nus.. and now that i had, i still need to hear from TUHH, private joke from german class... somehow.. something in me just died out...

but i really want to go.. i want to run away.. away from nus, away from singapore.. away from everything back here... yes, i am irresponsible, i am reckless in doing so.. but i guess, i'm one that will stop at nothing to get what i want.. well-almost.. depending on what the issue is all about.. i just want to hide.. even if it means that i won't know anyone at all.. i just want to go to a place, where i can have all my freedom.. all the feeling of running free...

let me go and let me fly...