end of AY04/05 semester 2

well, before i launch into my post.. it's gonna be long so read it at your own risk yeah!!

so here i am, at the end of the 2nd semester of AY04/05, which signifies the end of my 2nd year in nus and the last day of april as well... and well, in a way, the last exam i'll be having in nus for the next 1 year to come..

loads actually happened over the past 3 weeks.. a series of unfortunate events actually... but let's start with the happy events first.. well, started really late for this exams, i mean, the studying process.. but thank God for meiyan & faith.. they really sustained me throughout the whole exam.. not only by joking, once again, that i'm an 'engineer'.. but gossiping and talking rubbish.. having lunchs and dinners together at none other than the deck, the so-called funky name of the arts canteen.. and taking care of me when i fell sick.. really, dunno what i will do if they are not around.. and for going so early just to 'chop' seats at home-base... erm, we changed base from that of last semester.. we even launched a mini-competition with EC & company.. but meiyan's graduating this semester and i'll most likely and very likely be leaving for exchange next semester.. i'm gonna miss those exam days in the central library with the both of them.. but faith, i'll be back in year 4 and we repeat this whole process all over again yah?? must remember me yah!!!



oh yah, here's something that faith wrote for me, on the day which we titled 'self-deception day'.. meiyan's one was all about econs and tr modules.. faith was about, none other than FNA!!

and yes, there's EC & company.. whom we and many other people felt that he was actually pretty hot.. but that's about it.. made friends with a few of the people from the group.. really nice people but majority of them are year 4s, so they will be gone after this semester... it's so funny coz after a while, we kinda realised who sits where and all.. so when both parties 'chop' seats in the morning, we tend to vie for the same seats.. so that's how the competition came into play.. and of course, the hours meiyan, faith & me spent gossiping about gen pi chong 1 & 2.. *laughs*.. just for the laughters..

and of course, joanne!!! she's there everyday.. even on a sunday afternoon!!! great having you as a study partner too!!! but then again, i see you practically every week.. but studying together was a change..

and definitely, all the stray chem engin students around the entire library.. including my brother, liwei.. but nope, he's not a chem engineering student.. slacker and easier life over at mech engin dept!!! *humph!!!* and not to forget, my classmates who are around the library.. cheewee, guangpeng, linchun..

lastly, lisa and ben.. i finally got to know ben, though he's actually been here on exchange for a year!! oh man!! gonna go disturb him in berlin when i get there!! *laughs*.. both of them are really hardworking exchange students and both of them got so stressed this exams.. it was really nice studying with them.. but both of them are leaving soon to tour southeast asia, then to australia, where lisa is gonna work while visiting her extended family and ben is gonna work on his research project.. before flying home some time in august to canada and germany respectively.. *laughs*.. i was telling ben that he should buy souvenirs with the merlion picture on them, so he will remember singapore!!! *laughs* and lisa will stare at me, really appalled..

and now with the unfortunate issues.. yours truly fell sick last saturday and went to a lousy doctor in the evening.. see why i don't really like to go to the doc?? so wasted saturday and sunday trying to recover.. and yes, i had the ultimate, crappiest and craziest exam timetable:

26/4: CN3121 Process Dynamics & Control [evening paper]
27/4: CN2116 Chemical Kinetics & Reactor Design [morning paper]
28/4: CN3122 Mass Transfer Operations [afternoon paper]
28/4: GEK1001 Place, Environment & Society [evening paper]
30/4: LSM1401 Fundamentals of Biochemistry [afternoon paper]

that's how crazy my timetable was.. and i actually stayed up on wednesday night to study till 4am for both cn3122 & gek1001.. in the end, nothing for gek went into my head.. so right after the cn3122 paper, i got into a panick state and was trying desperately to cramp something into my head.. but when i was doing the paper, i really wondered if i did write something sensible with concepts in it.. oh sheesh!!! well, my brain was more than fried that day..

when i finally decided to start on my lsm paper.. guess what happened to me?? i suffered from a really terrible headache yesterday evening and had to disrupt meiyan during her study for her paper on saturday to take care of me.. i was just thinking like, how much more unfortunate can i get man!! but really thank God for meiyan, my parents and arpan, who took care of me during this period.. getting me warm water, fetching me home and all.. thanks loads..

you know what?? i've not felt so freaked out and terrified of exams for a really long time.. i mean, there are times when i just don't feel so good.. but not as bad as this time round.. but there has always been a sustainer and support for me and that's the big guy up there.. though i've not been spending a lot of time with Him and i really want to but somehow i am never disciplined and strong-willed enough to do that.. i really feel so disgusted with myself that He is always the constant and i am always the one running to Him, crying for help, only when trouble hits home..

anyway, came back home this afternoon to deposit all my stuff before going off to meet the class for dinner.. on the journey to orchard, i don't exactly know why, but just feeling a little weird and nostalgic.. maybe coz i'm going on exchange?? and town just felt so foreign.. it's as though it's on the other side of the universe.. went to zara but the season's collection ain't that fantastic.. went down to my favourite haunt: kinokuniya.. just trying to soak myself in books and all.. reading lonely planets, check out what's new in the fiction corner.. see if any chinese comics or books fancied me..

dinner was at heeren márche.. goodness, should have done a market survey before deciding to eat there.. there's now a new rule stating that everyone has to spent at least 10 bucks.. and this is a move to promote better customer service.. right!! had to convince the management to allow lisa to come in without the card, coz it's a really ridiculous system man!! we met a whole bunch of chem engin students there too..

popped a little surprise for peijia.. hopefully it was 'surprise' enough.. gonna go think of what present to get her.. so sorry that it's gonna be a belated present!! opps!! then took some silly photos.. guessed that recently, i'm really into the mood of phototaking.. maybe coz i'm leaving soon, so wanna carry the memories with me over there.. well, i'll definitely miss cn6, no matter how crap chem engin is.. and i mean, everyone in class..



we hung around till about 10pm, before leaving orchard.. which is actually pretty early for me coz i don't usually go home till about 11 plus.. anyway, and so now start my 3-months holidays.. actually it's longer than that coz i'll be missing next semester in nus.. gosh, better go figure out some way to settle all my exchange stuff and all.. and i wanna work too.. one reason is to kill time, another is to earn at least some money for my exchange.. gosh, i'm gonna end up spending so much!!

little girl..

when the little girl grew up, she learnt that she has wings.. she learnt that her wings have grew stronger too but they were not seasoned enough to carry her through all the rain and storm and withstand the strong winds.. silly enough though, she still wanted to go out into the rain and give everything a try.. maybe she will learn that out there, it's not so nice after all.. that where she's from is much better... but when she is out there, she will have to learn things that were not taught to her.. she will have to learn to swim and keep her head above the water..

STRESSED!!!!!

it must be the name..

nothing more to be said.. just opening closed doors..

SNOW.WOLF.LAKE

even if i go broke.. i will still want to watch this musical again!!! i don't care even if i'm being an ultimate spoilt brat here, who is supposed to be studying.. SUPPOSEDLY!!! but i really need to proclaim my love for it..

been having an on-off 'affair' with this musical for the past 8 years... and yes, i still have a huge affinity for it... 8 years ago, i paid a heck load for it though i understood not a single word said or sung.. and now, it's gonna be repeated in mandarin... oh man!! what's the better thing?? it's gonna be coming to singapore!!! oh man, i hope to be able to catch it before i leave..

honestly, i will still pay whatever amount, that i deemed reasonable, to watch this musical all over again.. another item to my wishlist!!! here's the 2005 publicity poster.. SNOW.WOLF.LAKE...

sunny!!! happy 21st birthday!!

yeah... finally seen this bunch of folks.. just that it kinda felt a little weird and lost.. maybe coz i've not seen them for ages.. even if it's for a month, i consider that ages... and of course, there's those folks whom i have not seen for more than a month, just didn't get the chance to catch up and talk and all.. just feeling a little disappointed that i didn't get to catch up with this particular friend.. oh wells.. goodness knows...

thank God for sunny's party.. got to see people again.. and can you believe that the guys have ord-ed and are now talking about uni life?? shaun has already started school at nanyang poly!! he's gonna read physiology.. smart dude!!! good choice!!! jooteng, koksoon & sunny are thinking of which halls to stay in during their 1st year.. fluctuating between ke7 & kr.. convincing them to come kr instead.. *kendrick, you better treat me for this!! free publicity some more!!!*..

thanks to lloyd, got a ride till somewhere along the aye.. and guess what koksoon was doing during the ride?? he was counting the number of friends who's professions will be useful to him in the near future.. goodness!!! think age is catching up and time is flying too fast..

had a lousy test this morning, which marked the completion of another module.. stupid experiments and MATLAB!!! yucks!!! i absolutely and still totally hate programming.. at least SIMULINK ain't that bad.. just drag diagrams and input the functions.. and what's even better, the experiments which we printed were totally unhelpful to the test questions!!! oh sheesh!!! waste money to print the reports man!!! but the joke of the day was, how i managed to convince guangpeng & kianyaw to go on strike and not study!! woohoo!!! *applause for me please!!!*

on a sidenote: i attended my last lecture in nus for this semester on friday morning.. after the lecture has ended, kelvin su was like, did you realise that this is the last lecture we will be attending in nus coz we are leaving for exchange next sem?? i suddenly realised that i will miss everything at nus.. but come to think of it, i really don't exactly know what will i do and how will i react, if i don't go for exchange..

sheesh, exams are a week away and here i am, still blogging!! oh no..

LAG3203 Gruppe 2

ich möchte alles auf deutsch schreiben aber mein deutsch ist nicht so gut.. ich habe viele zu sagen.. über der kurs, über die kommilitonen/-innen, über herr chan, über der spaß, über die gedächtnisse.. heute war es die letzte vorlesung und ich habe jetzt viele gefühle, aber ich weiß nicht, wie zu sagen... ich werde alle vermissen.. sowieso habe ich einiger zu einigem von ihnen zu sagen, aber alles auf englisch..

to eufo: viele dank für alles.. ich meine, vom ersten semester bis heute bist du eine sehr gute kommilitonin.. ich hätte viel spaß mit dir in deutschland und während der zeit an der uni.. du bist sehr fließig und ich muss mehr von dir lernen.. *i give up*.. it was great working with you all this time and thanks for putting up with all my nonsense.. till hamburg..

to weiyao: in a way, you and liwei have been a real support for me in many things.. sometimes just wonder what will i do, if i didn't have you guys to complain to.. come, let's try and convince you to go to heidelberg but then again, do what is best for yourself.. thanks for everything and remember to take your labcoat back yah!!

to mein onkel: you are one of those, who's in the same class as me for only 2 semesters but thanks to freiburg, got to know you folks better.. thanks for being another whom i can complain to and it was great having ya around.. and though it's not easy.. follow your passion and who knows... =P

to samuel: you are another freiburger.. and honestly, it was great talking to ya all these while.. realised that there's much to learn in this life than the present.. bis münchen..

to leeying: so nice to have ya in the same class for 4 semesters, but guess only talked to you more since last semester.. you really have a really big heart and can never forget your patience with our craziness during the baking session.. thanks for making german class so fun and memorable for me.. vielleicht können wir in tübingen treffen.. wenn ich nicht nach singapur zurückkomme..

to khim nyang: the wonderful and master baker of our pretty small but disastrous baking session.. and yes, you can really bake.. great having ya in the class and for being part of the fun.. vielleicht kannst du den oreo-käsekuchen noch mal backen?

to xiaoyan: can't believe that we are in the same tutorial and lecture group for 3 semesters.. it was great working with ya for the oral last semester.. i'll definitely go visit you when i go down to china..

to junfu: didn't really talk to you till this semester, coz you developed an affinity for my 'mistress'.. thanks for all the fun and humour in class.. your presence was really great.. have fun in kalsruhe, where i initially planned to go.. but anyways..

to charles: you always say 'ich verstehe bahnhof' and i guess, from you, all of us caught on the phrase.. thanks for all the fun that you have added to the class.. have fun in germany this coming holidays..

to sheauling/ weeshan/ leo/ bengkeng/ kheng khoon/ molly/ jamie/ julius/ suminah: thanks for everything too.. i guess, the company really made the class different and much more fun.. thanks for all the fun.. and guess, i'll miss having evening classes for a long time to come.. will blog more and write to you all another time... must study.. erm, hopefully...

no title..

just felt like blogging.. sheesh, i should get out of these modes and start studying man, despite still having 2 tests next week.. and i mean, to start studying for the exams!!! yes, the exams!!! the crappified and irritating exams are back.. and gosh, i have zero understanding of what has happened for the entire semester.. i'm so gone case... and i have to stop thinking about nonsensical stuff..

referat preparations are crappified too.. i don't like this at all... i feel so lost in everything and anything.. it doesn't help that my table's in a mess too.. sheesh!!!

just attended a princessy-birthday.. yeah, for once, not a 21st party but a 5th birthday party.. goodness, the birthday girl even had a Hi-5 candle!! gosh, reminded me of all my birthday parties when i was still a kid.. and the princess is none other than charlene!!! my really sweet and pretty niece!!! and yes, according to charlene, i was supposed to be princess jasmine's fat and short father from the cartoon, aladdin.. erm.. *scratch head*

my aunts were like, so where have you disappeared to?? you have not been clocking attendance at family gatherings.. erm, too many 21st to attend?? at the mention of 21, they were like, so you are turning 21 already!!! and before i forget, happy birthday weijie!!! yeah, attended her party last weekend, with sheauling, weishan and cuixia.. missing some folks from freiburg too..

if you are wondering why am i up so late, coz i was cracking my brain, doing the nus feedback.. and i realised that, the more modules you have, the more feedback you have to complete.. sheesh, why can't it just become another feedback system, with all modules summarised into one input and have the output amplified into each individual response.. of course, the feedback comes with a selection option, where one can choose which he wants to edit, if necessary... oh crap, what did i just type here..

prof. p. r. krishnaswamy & prata...

disclaimer: there's absolutely no relation between the subjects.. just a coincidence that i decided to talk about the both of them at the same time.. and it's just a coincidence that both subjects popped into my head on the same day...

prof. krishna.. lecturer of the module CN3121, which we all re-titled as TL3121.. coz unfortunately, his accent is just too thick for many of us to comprehend what he was trying to say.. webcasts are the best examples.. after watching them, they leave you wondering if you have just attended a tamil class or english class...

but he's one really nice old man, who behaves and acts a little like a kid.. i know that this sounds psychotic.. but he really looks like a kid when he laughs and smiles.. sheesh!! sometimes his actions are really able to make you melt and i guess, he did just that today..

it was the last lecture for the module and he was saying all that he had to say to us before ending the class.. well, it just felt so genuine.. his love for the subject and the students.. it just felt different from other semesters.. for once, ever since i started school at nus, i felt that there are lecturers who indeed care for the students, despite having spent only one semester with them.. perhaps there is really still hope in this over-commercialised institution, where no one seems to care that much...

lisa said that for the very first time as well, she's actually feeling sad that the semester is coming to an end.. and she really loves krishna a lot.. she was like, i'm so about to cry when he said that to us.. oh wells, to everything, there has to be an end.. here's the webcast to the last lecture.. check it out under lecture 22.. watch the last 4 minutes though coz that's the best part of it all...

had dinner with cell for once, in a really long time.. there's no lsm lecture and german lecture was postponed.. so i'm free!!! oh wells, due to poor time estimation, i was late!!! thank God for suren, who gave me a lift.. oh yah, we ended up at upper and lower pierce for prata, thosai, mutton soup... the attendance was clocked by su, jo, eunice, weihao, benett & sean..

anyway, had a really exotic prata - mushroom egg prata and an usual plain prata.. which was sufficient to floor me.. well, maybe i've gotten over that period of unusual stuffing.. was supposed to share the cheese thosai with eunice but i was more than bloated to eat anymore.. plus, it was too cheessy for me.. anyway, we had so much food on the table, it looked... *speechless*...

due to the bloatedness, we decided to take a walk along the road.. from one end to another.. found the entrances of lower pierce reservoir but they were completely unlit.. a little freaky though.. and suren was like our mother hen.. taking care of all of us.. oh yah, we went past this house owned by caucasians.. oh man, the house is so pretty and it follows that of an open-concept!!!! the residents were watching tv when we went past them, so we all waved at them and they waved back!!! *laughs*...

despite it being a cool night, we were sweating after the walk.. so we went down to the japanese restaurant for ice cream.. *laughs*.. green tea ice cream... gulp!!! count me out please.. settled for a boring coke float.. but oh wells, i don't like green tea ice cream..

suren gave sean, jo, weihao and me a lift till bukit timah.. and guess what?? we saw bus no. 165!!! we were like, BUS!!!! thank God for cars and traffic lights.. we got off in time to get on the bus.. kinda reminded me that time when sean, jo and me were sitting at the bus-stop talking and when 165 went passed, jo and me just pointed at it and went 'ARGH!!!!'... that was last year man!! sheesh!! time flies...

prof. tan thiam chye

this is not the same prof. tan who have occassionally made an appearance on my blog... this prof. tan is my professor for one of my modules..

i don't exactly have a great affinity for him but just felt that he is a man of great experience and kind of thinks along the same line as me.. well, of course, he will not amplify his thoughts during the lectures, considering that webcast can be served as a form of evidence and blackmail.. the elders tend to share a little more about their life stories and sorts.. cool!! just thought that it was pretty surprising to find someone who has similar thoughts about the education system...

anyway, interest should never be converted into a subject.. when that happens, it kills the interest and any other form of love for it..

i bought the comic book approximately about 1.5 years ago.. sometime around the period when the movie was first released.. but it was shown on tv just this evening.. i'm not complaining but just felt that some of the characters were a little 'extra'.. but without the 'extra' characters, this will become some art-film..

hmm... it brought back some memories though.. got rid of some junk here and there.. high time not to think too much about irrelevant stuff.. es ist vorbei..

how time flies.. and here it comes...

hmm.. dedicating this post to one of my 'mistresses': xiaojun... my 'evil/good' twin: jasmine [we take turns to be good and evil]... meine 'in-search-for-good-food & lecker-männer' partnerin: yiting.. and to my many-years-older-but-4A-senior: minghui...

before i launch into anything here, let me warn you that this will be a really long post.. so if you don't wanna collapse halfway, you have been warned...

well, as the title suggests... it's pretty surprising how time slips away without us actually realising it.. just feeling a little weird, how approximately 10 months ago, we were having a truckload of fun on our immersion trip and now, we are all going off for our exchange... and yes, all 4 of them are flying off to deutschland tomorrow... xiaojun & jas are flying off in the morning to köln and heidelberg respectively while mingui & yiting are flying off in the evening to münchen and konstanz respectively.. hmm, gonna miss them all, especially those freiburgers... i mean, 1 month together in freiburg and 2 sems of german classes.. hicks.. well, soon it will be eufo, sam, rongjia, yuhan and me... and then majority of the rest for summer 2006..

spent wednesday evening with some of the freiburgers and one darmstadter... jas, xiaojun, weijie, sam, yiting, yuhan, minghui.. spent a fair bit of time deciding where to go and finally, we settle for holland village.. for katong laksa!! this is so funny, yiting bought food frm the noodle stall next to where we were.. well, we talked so much and ate so slowly, the stall closed before she could return her plate.. in the end, she left it by the stall.. remembered that we used to joke that sam's food will turn the coldest among all of us, coz he always have much to say.. but it's great talking to him.. guess experience in life does matter..

what we did next, took us an even longer time.. but finally we went down to coffee club express for desserts... well, muddy mudpie.. here i come!! shared that with yiting.. never fail to remind me of the eating experience we had at the freiburg-mensa.. for the love of food, burnt a hole in our pockets but it was worth doing so... gute essen sind nicht billig!! gonna miss having my eating buddy around, though we have not gone eating after we came back to singapore.. shared peach garden tea with xiaojun.. aber sie mochte es nicht... sie fand es sehr komisch.. jas and yuhan indulged on brownie with ice cream, while sam and minghui indulged in muddy mudpie too.. yiting had a pot of morning dew tea too.. and we finally went off at about 1130pm.. coz majority of them had german tutorial in the morning..

dann kam freitag.. der letzte tag, dass die vier in singapur waren... to give them a 'good' send-off, we had our semester test this evening.. which was a heck of a disaster.. aber es ist vorbei, ich werde es nicht mehr denken!!! had another truckload of fun at munchie monkey during stammtisch!! yeah, viel spaß... aber leider konnten xiaojun, jas & yiting nicht mit uns gehen, weil sie packen mussten... und die essen schmeckten nicht so good.. all that matters was the company.. oh, we had the company of the german exchange students with us too... played some really interesting german games... helped to clean out part of munchie monkey's kitchen.. broke the chilli pepper shaker.. and made so much noise.. it was a good end to the week though..

we finally said our goodbyes at 1030pm.. everyone was passing well-wishes to minghui, just in case we can't make it to see him off tomorrow evening.. don't think i can wake up to send jas & xiaojun off too..

to xiaojun, yiting, jas & minghui: have loads of fun.. and i'm sure you all will.. can't wait for my chance to go over.. but gonna miss you all esp if i have to leave before you all come back.. viel glück und viel spaß!!!


[had to shrink the photo but here's some of the freiburgers..]

on a sidenote, i met kelvin tang today.. haven't seen that guy for so long since the last combined mtg.. and he's gonna be councillor i/c... my goodness!! even i decided to retire for good.. but anyway, he has a really good reason to castrate someone.. no prizes for guessing it right.. but i just heard the most ridiculous thing... no offence, but 5 treasurers??? don't think there's that much to be done that will require 5 treasurers!! sheesh, even with what we had, there were only 3 and we did the job just fine.. i'm not trying to promote mine or anyone's working abilities but i just think that it's really erm.. *glurp*.. fayeth and me handled it just fine.. think one important element is the support that we all gave each other, though there were moments whereby we drove each other up the wall.. but all was well and i still miss them..

theresia!!! happy 21st birthday!!!

das referatsskizze.. kein spaß...

feeling a little groggy now.. been working on das referatsskizze.. crap, it's a heck load of work.. maybe should have listened to weiyao and start working on it since friday evening... thank God for eufo.. she did the part on the entire distillation process, which is the main focus of the referat, which is in about 3 weeks time..

anyway, i realised that i've forgotten bulks of my biology knowledge.. not exactly a good thing though.. and i'm so tired.. yawn!!! oh, before i forget, miss tan finally updated her blog!!! yeah, i was about to believe that she has vaporised but nope, she posted on her blog and replied to my comment... *laughs*... i really miss her though.. one of the sane people in this insane world of mine...

thumbs-up program & another birthday party..

woke up at what i deemed as an unearthly hour of 0630hr to go for this program at huayi secondary school.. yeah, felt pretty old there, esp. since there were facilitators which are from other sec. schs as well.. and the class which i was attached to comprised of sec. 1... the last bunch of sec. 1 which i saw and had contact with, are presently sec. 3 students... sheesh.. time flies...

a pretty fun bunch of kids that i was attached to.. chee peng came late and freaked the heck out of me coz i knew absolutely no one there.. despite me being pretty sociable, apprehensive is still present.. thank God for approachable facilitators.. but was there more as an observer than a facilitator... but i had loads of fun.. valid reason to account for the fact that i skipped pdc make-up lecture!!! *laughs*...

the program ran was actually on something which i've done many years ago.. that which brought back some memories.. pieces which i prefer to remember and pieces which i prefer to forget.. anyway, it was the D-I-S-C personality/ working style test.. yeah, did that test back in upper sec..

anyway, back then.. in descending order, here's my result: C-S-D-I
and now, in descending order, here's my result: C-I-D-S

hmm... it's not shocking, considering how much i've changed since sec. sch days... but just surprised that my S-component is pretty low now.. guess that i've just became more reckless and less stable.. more loud and less quiet... but i still do stupid things like, read the non-smoking sign in the lift while in the lift, [which is a typical trait of C-component]... and am so loud that i can be heard from a distance of more than 10 miles away, [which is typical of I-component]...

just wondering how i've changed over the years and pondering if it has been for the better or worse.. but given me a choice, i would rather be the person i am today...i will miss the stability that i once had but that does not mean that i do not have it now.. rather i have that extra thread of recklessness and loudness in me.. yeah, pak wing said he can hear me 10 miles away... so word of advice: run when you see me around, just in case i embarrass you.. just kidding.. i'm not so evil..

oh.. just an interesting observation: everyone thinks that i'm a teacher!!! oh sheesh!!! the 'cher' thing is a long-ago issue yah!!! humph!!! and once again, everyone was shocked to learn that i'm from the faculty of engineering... well, unbelieveable but it's true!!!

came home at about 3 plus to have lunch and to hitch a ride from my parents.. gave the family gathering a miss again.. for theresia's 21st birthday party!!! happy birthday!!! yeah.. and my so-called shopping trip was unfortunately cut short by rhys.. humph!!! like i said, shopping is a form of meeting civilisation for an engineer-wannabe!!! *laughs*... met many people whom i've not seen for a really long time, such as sunny/ andrew/ jooteng... it was great seeing them all.. and had such a great time catching up with alexis too...

oh yes, for once, the guys ain't talking about ns anymore!!! well, since some of them have already ord-ed... and are getting ready for uni-life.. yeah yeah!!! welcome to uni man!!! sunny and jooteng were discussing which hall to stay in.. or to rent an off-campus apartment.. it's just so weird.. hearing all these uni-stuff from them.. give it one semester, and they will forget the gals here man... wait, maybe even faster than a semester.. hicks... oh yah, sunny's gonna join the nus-family in the faculty of arts and social sciences.. cool!!! go rock nus dude!!!

oh yes, received a phone call from someone whom i've not seen for a really really long time and it was really great to hear from him.. yeah, got a call from my really-really-long-time-'brother', justin!!!! he is accepted by both the university of toronto & university of waterloo in canada.. dumb that nus rejected him.. but who cares.. go overseas!!! the experience earned will overwrite everything else.. and to add to that, he received some MVP award from microsoft.. erm, don't ask me what's that about.. but it's really cool!!! oh man!!!

before i forget, i got my mp3 player working.. pretty cool.. love it loads..

nichole nordeman - why

We rode into town the other day,
just me and my daddy.
he said I'd finally reached that age,
and I could ride next to him on a horse
that of course, was not quite as wild.

We heard a crowd of people shouting,
and so we stopped to find out why.
There was that man that my dad said he loved,
but today there was fear in his eyes.

So I said, "Daddy, why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why is He dressed in that bright purple robe?
I bet that crown hurts Him more than He shows.
Daddy please, can't you do something?
He looks as though He's gonna cry.
You said He was stronger than all of those guys;
Daddy, please tell me why.
Why does everyone want Him to die?"

Later that day, the sky grew cloudy,
and Daddy said I should go inside.
Somehow he knew things would get stormy.
Boy was he right, but I could not keep from wondering
if there was something he had to hide.

So after he left, I had to find out.
I was not afraid of getting lost.
So I followed the crowds to a hill
where I knew men had been killed,
and I heard a voice come from the cross.

And it said, "Father, why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why are they casting their lots for my robe?
This crown of thorns hurts me more than it shows.
Father please, can't you do something?
I know that You must hear my cry.
I thought I could handle a cross of this size.
Father, remind me why.
Why does everyone want me to die?
Oh, when will I understand why?"

My precious son, I hear them screaming.
I'm watching the face of the enemy beaming.
But soon I will clothe you in robes of my own.
Jesus, this hurts me much more than you know,
but this dark hour, I must do nothing,
though I've heard your unbearable cry.
The power in your blood destroys all of the lies;
soon you'll see past their unmerciful eyes.
Look, there below, see the child
trembling by her father's side.
Now I can tell you why... she is why you must die.

alles geht mir nicht gut...

ALLES GEHT MIR NICHT GUT!!! ich bin schlecht, ich mag alles nicht.. alles passiert nicht gut!!! pdc test, tutoriums, das wetter, meine gesundheit, besondes die mündliche prüfung... ganz sehr schlimm... ich finde, dass ich nicht gut für sie machen werde... ich weiß.. große angst.. ich habe zwei fragen falsch geantwortet.. argh!!! schlimm, schlecht...

viel stress mit viel zu tun.. aber ich finde, dass ich nicht genug zeit habe... ich weiß wirklich nicht, warum ich viel zu machen habe, aber es gibt keine erklärung.. ich bin sehr müde und ich brauche mehr pause.. aber keine zeit...

ich bin ein bisschen glücklich und ein bisschen unglücklich.. ich denke, dass ich verrückt werde.. jawohl... vielleicht ist es der grund für meine probleme.. hicks.. kann jemand zu mir bitte erklären? meine welt ist zu klein aber ich habe viele viele.. deswegen ich nicht alles verstehen kann... jawohl, ich verstehe bahnhof.. es kommt darauf an?? ich hoffe, dass es die situation ist..

vielleicht glaube ich die redensart, "kommt zeit, kommt rat" nicht...

we have moved!!!

and yes we did!! we finally did.. K.I.D.S CHURCH - kids in divine service.. has finally moved from the ground level of green pastures to the 2nd level!!! with air-con and storage cupboards, which will really help us save the extra work of moving stuff every 3rd sunday of the month..

yeah, though i've not been exactly taking a big role in KC recently, but i just really love KC every month.. like i've said before, i really wonder if i've been blessed more than been blessing the kids.. yeah, i feel like a kid.. doing all those kiddy actions with the action songs and shouting at the top of my voice, attempting to sing during praise and worship.. then trying to ra-ra up the kids for games.. and for once, i felt a strain to my voice.. our voices are too enclosed in the new place, so we can't exactly hear ourselves and really had to shout...

anyway, watched lord of the rings - the fellowship of the ring again.. part 2 is aired tomorrow.. reminded me of those folks whom i first watched it with.. with rhys trying to explain the whole story to me, coz i watched the two towers before watching the fellowship of the ring on vcd at biaoda's house.. steph and jooteng were there too.. remembered that we had to ban rhys from eating the pizza first, though he was really hungry.. *laughs*.. else there would be nothing left for the rest of us..

and right before the last installment - the return of the king, came to the big screen, was having revision session with adeline at her place.. we watched from 3 plus till 10 plus in the night.. to add to that, we were watching the extended versions of both!!! and when mrs fong opened the door, we were spooked coz we switched off the lights in her room and had the dvd-vcd player turned to max. volume.. yeah.. kinda miss her and haven't seen her for so long.. and guess it just feels a little distant.. oh wells..

just visited alwyn's blog.. saw all the wonderful and brilliant photos taken during his cycling trip.. reminds me of what luke will do too.. go cycling, together with his slr.. taking photos along the way.. guess that's what a lot of us will like to do.. i will want to do that too but i can't cycle and all i can do is, walk.. but given singapore's weather, spare me please.. yeah, i can sweat like crap just by walking to nus... sheesh!!!

finally!!! i've seen civilisation.. and i'm attempting to have a life man!! been working on my human geog project and finally it's OVER!! i'm so more than relieved when it was officially completed.. quite an adventure doing the project.. and i hope it will be fine... been stuck in the school library for the past 3 days of my life.. just for the pdc test this morning, which was an ultimate disaster... so much for sleeping on average 4.5 hours per day and falling asleep during lectures...

so... maybe it was good that i went for ben cheah's birthday yesterday!! oh man, though ben did not answer my calls so i had to call rhys, in order to contact ben.. and though i had to figure out how to get to his estate.. but poor ben was getting stone-drunk by his ns friends, afterwhich he got thrown into the pool.. weird bunch of people though.. well, at least he got to cut his cake, unlike ken.. oh wells, i'm just glad that i went for it.. missed the folks so much.. haven't seen some of them for more than 3 months!! sheesh!! see what nus has done to me... oh, ben, happy 21st birthday!!! =)

muendliche probepruefung was an ultimate disaster.. sheesh, to think that the real thing is next wednesday!!! panick state again!!!

met a friend, whom i have not seen for quite some time and to think that i'll get to meet him man!!! anyway, met haoyi and his girlfriend, laura, when i was walking to coronation road to take public transport to orchard.. in the end, they gave me a ride to newton mrt.. anyway, this charismatic dude has matriculated into smu, together with lionel, lloyd, sunny, edmund, ben chia, andrew and whoever else.. goodness, sounds like another acjc community populating the campus... but then again, sunny, lloyd and him, all can't exactly make up their minds if they wanna stay here or go over to the states to study.. oh wells, whatever the decision is, guys, have loads of fun wherever you are!!!

anyway, spent the evening with kelvin li, dwi & juline.. watched the best movie i've watched so far for the year 2005..



haven't laughed so hard and so much for a very long time.. but the movie was good.. at least i could understand it better.. well, there's an ending.. and there are some truths in the story.. about guys, girls, love, relationship... but then again, like i was telling dwi, movies usually just show the surface of the whole situation.. may be a world of difference in reality... arpan said this movie is suitable as a 'date' movie.. so to all my guy friends out there, go bring your girlfriends to watch this movie, if you have not already done so...

i was just thinking that if i were to watch this movie with the rag comm ppl, guess we would dominate the theatre with our laughters, considering that we can go on laughing for an hour non-stop.. yeah, miss those folks too...

by the way, did i mention that i'm pretty good at reading some people's body action?? jawohl!! i am.. *laughs*.. come ask me if you wanna know what i am talking about here.. coz i think i'll get killed if i do publicly announce the issues here.. anyway, nitya got my present!!! *phew*.. was so worried that i've sent it to the wrong address..

think i'm gonna go catch up on sleep.. there's american beauty on channel 5 but i've watched that movie before.. it was good!!! yeah, enjoyed it though the content was a little warped and disturbing..

anyway, before i go off to sleep.. 2 more announcements to make...



1. this charming-looking mp3 player above.. it's now mine.. and this is the exact colour which i've bought.. or rather i got my mum to go help me purchase it since i had school yesterday.. oh man, but don't exactly have the time now to check out on how to use it and all... my desktop is still not up and that's where all my songs are...

2. i bought a new pencil-case.. yunling was appalled when i told her that my maroon tropicana life one has lasted me for 4.25 years.. and now, it's this lila pencil case with netting.. yeah, i can even stuff my calculator inside... jawohl.. zu gross!!!

Life is not measured by the breaths we take but by the moments that take our breath away.

let her go and let her fly..

"Congratulations! You have been selected by the Faculty of Engineering for the student exchange programme [SEP] in academic year 2005/6. You have been assigned to the Technical University of Hamburg-Harburg...."

so it's finally here... i finally got my approval letter.. but why am i still not contented?? that excitement, that joy, that anticipation... somehow has fizzled out.. maybe coz it's due to that extensive waiting period to hear from nus.. and now that i had, i still need to hear from TUHH, private joke from german class... somehow.. something in me just died out...

but i really want to go.. i want to run away.. away from nus, away from singapore.. away from everything back here... yes, i am irresponsible, i am reckless in doing so.. but i guess, i'm one that will stop at nothing to get what i want.. well-almost.. depending on what the issue is all about.. i just want to hide.. even if it means that i won't know anyone at all.. i just want to go to a place, where i can have all my freedom.. all the feeling of running free...

let me go and let me fly...

finally got a chance to go to the cinemas again.. yeah, the last round was during chinese new year.. and yes, i finally got to watch a movie, which i really want to watch, ever since i saw the trailer last november.. and yes, nitya, i've watched CLOSER!!!



but guess what?? it's one of the most confusing stories i have ever watched.. the movie just made the whole world looked so messed up and everyone is just falling in love with each other, exchanging partners with each other, which is not a good thing.. i mean, erm.. oh wells.. yeah, lisa and me were expecting more.. like at least have a moral to the whole story?? coz there was none.. or maybe there was, but i just didn't realise it.. so nitya, please come and explain the story to me.. i'm kind of lost in it..

julia roberts is still that pretty but there's really a distinct difference between her and natalie portman, who is much younger.. yeah, the other side to queen amedelia.. natalie portman was good.. really.. just think that jude law is really charming.. but that's about it.. come to think of it, this movie is like an exhibition of pretty people.. hmm... a movie peppered with loads of explicits, particularly with one word which i have no affinity for... sheesh!!!

a busy week ahead.. don't exactly think i've enough time.. getting really stressed up over mündliche prüfung.. crap.. ben's having his 21st party on friday evening but i can't go.. AGAIN!!! coz of some stupid pdc mid-term test on saturday morning at 0830hour!!! crappified!!!

If you believe in love at first sight, you never stop looking.

i'm the queen of the house!!!!

well.. almost, till i realised that my desktop died on me again!!! argh!!! but just thankfully that i didn't switch on my desktop yesterday night, else i would spend the whole night fiddling with it and not study for my test.. so here i am, using my dad's notebook... thank God that i have 3 computers at home.. 2 of which belong to my dad.. unless i intend to take over one of them, but looks like, he has already configured everything on his new notebook.. hmm.. just upset that all my lab reports and projects stuff are in my desktop..

hmm.. you must be thinking why am i the queen??? coz my parents are part of the church old folks' ministry retreat organising committee, so they are now away in malaysia.. and me, am staying in sunny, boring singapore coz there's just too much to be done here.. but now that my desktop ist kaputt!!! fed up man!!!

this morning had cn2116 mid-term.. what a disaster.. doesn't exactly make much a difference even if i've studied for it.. just hope that it won't be like that of hmt last semester.. sigh!!! skipped lloyd's 21st birthday party to study for it.. hey dude, so sorry, i'll make it up to you okay?? hicks.. felt so stressed the whole of last week coz there were german and cn2116 test.. not that the coming week is gonna be any better, throw in 2 assignments, 1 project, 1 test and preparation for oral.. crap, feeling the heat man!!!

attempted pdc assignment with jianz, peijia & lisa.. but not even one question done, our brains were more than fried.. so the girls plus xingyi, decided to drop by mpsh and act-like incoming freshmen and joined in the open house madness.. quite boring though.. oh, we were so determined to get the lion stuff toy from the alumni booth, we just stood there, trying to learn about all the alumni members of nus.. *laughs*.. even people like jeanette aw, tay ping hui were part of it.. thought they would quiz us on more important people, esp those in politics... yeah, that bit was fun.. oh, believe this or not, the engineering booth had the biggest crowd!!! we were like, those people have lost their head in trying to apply to engin... just look at us.. *laughs*.. we told everyone who recognised us that we are gonna apply for a change of course!!!

oh yes, during the cca exhibition, the raffles hall spokeman was trying to convince the 4 of us to apply for hall.. well, indeed, hall life is a heck of an experience.. but nay.. staying just behind kent vale, and having been posted to ke7 before.. i'm contented with staying home though it will be nice to have a room to return to after classes have ended, rather than having to travel a really short distance to go home... oh yes, and i learnt that weiliang is taking part in his hall pageant!! woohoo!! go dude!!!

was telling lisa that, when we are no longer freshmen, attending such open houses and matric fair, we tend to push away everything that is offered to us.. maybe coz we have all aged and that excitement which we entered uni with, has already burnt off after being exposed to this environment for the past 2 years and 2 more to come..

back home now.. raining still.. not hungry yet, coz we were stuffing ourselves with pancakes.. and feeling so dehydrated after that.. gonna attempt to cook dinner later.. pray that i don't burn the kitchen down.. touch wood man!!!

if i want to, if i'm strong enough..
i will be able to block off every emotion rush and feeling..
but i am not strong enough to do so..
suddenly, ignorance is bliss..

we will always come to a point,
whereby we will want what we cannot have..

urge to blog..

but it's dumb especially since when i'm supposed to be studying my german vocabulary and copying the cn2116 assignment.. so a short and sweet one before going back to copy something which i have no understanding about..

just finished typing some dumb 100-word essay.. not an essay but rather a passage.. i would rather kill myself.. i so cannot make it with words and grammer and all... but thank God for friends like charmaine and adeline, who have been faithfully correcting my writings and all since the year 2003, especially adeline.. well, the bad news is, i've another one of these writing stuff to do this coming weekend, so ade, opps!!! *trying to look innocent*

good time spent with yunling on sat evening.. this dear girl is gonna pursue what she like doing most: design!! next time, shall ask her for help and advice with design materials.. *laughs*.. okay, koksoon, don't come scolding me arh.. i'll be nice to her...

dropped my md headphones by accident and now the sound system is pretty off.. a little upset and was so determined to send them for repair works, till i learnt abt the charges... sheesh, i rather save up for a brand new mp3 player instead.. yeah, my wish-list item: the creative mvo player!!! either that, or i'll just settle for a new nokia phone.. since my N6510 is more than about to be gone..

loads are shooting through my brain and i'm trying to answer the question of 'why'... what is my alternate route?? what if i'm just going around in circles?? what happens if everything falls apart?? the price tags are just too many and too expensive... it's okay if you don't understand what i'm writing here.. *laughs*..

how nerdy are you??

What does this mean?
Your nerdiness is: somewhat nerdy... I mean face it, you are nerdier than about half the test takers!!!

just a post before i go out..

currently listening to: micheal wong - tong hua
[yingchao said that this song is pathetic.. well almost coz the guy has to become an angel, in order to love the girl.. anyway, just think that the lyrics are really sweet.. kelvin li was like, you mean you girls dig into such songs!!! well, sometime it does not hurt to fantasise.. so, oh wells!!! *laughs*]

after battling with myself for the last 3 minutes of yesterday night, having done and undone what i did.. i chose not to s/u my subjects at all.. so, that's it.. 7 modules graded.. someone must have flown me to the moon and back and made me lost my head.. oh wells..

just finished collating mein vokabelprotokolllist.. 5 seiten!!! *faints*.. throw in cn2116 mid-term one week from today.. i'm gonna faint too.. stress stress stress.. guess that's what everyone is feeling now.. oh finished a little of the lab report, waiting for the chance to QC the report, before sending it to print.. i'm dreading next week's lab.. kendrick has done it already, and it's a terrible stack of 64 pages!!! *faints faints*...

oh, giving red blue gold a miss.. yeah, hopefully i did the right thing though.. maybe will meet the guys for supper or whatever.. till later!!!

boys do cry..

mit knappem abstand steht nus auf dem zweiten platz, direkt hinter ntu. ntu hat das ivp-basketballspiel 2004/2005 gewonnen. sehr sehr schade... nus hat sehr gut gespielt aber vielleicht war es nicht seiner spiel...

oh wells, if there's anything good that i learnt out of ranking, here it is.. anyway, was at the ivp basketball finals.. the guys played a really good game, but just guessed that it wasn't nus's game.. nus trailed ntu by only 2 points... oh wells.. but it was the spirit and drive that the guys had, which was really captivating..



the crowd, though not that much.. the spirit, the drive reminded me of days back in acjc.. where we cheered our hearts out, screamed our lungs out and unfortunately, sometimes, we made fun of our opponents too.. especially during rugby finals, when the whole school gets half-day off, comes down to police academy, stands under the hot evening sun for the next 2 hours to come.. watching the biggest sporting event for the acs family.. the excitement, the craze, the adrenaline rush when the players score.. it's just pure madness!! then it gets extremely chaotic when the final goal is scored and there will be a great diffusion of physical mass towards the centre of the field.. and the acs anthem does not sound like that of just another school song..



well, though i think i'll never understand how it feels to be building a float, to be a dancer for rag but being part of rag comm last year, it was more than enough.. witnessing the efforts of all the pbs, thinking how in the world did they come up with all those mechanism?? how in the world can old aluminium cans be reused.. the floats kind of redefine the meaning of recycling, just that everything goes into a sembcorp waste bin after months of efforts.. the heart, the hours, the sacrifice they made to make the float work.. though at the end of the day, the float has absolutely no relevance to the theme of each rag event.. it's always good vs. evil and good will always triumph.. right!! remember kianyaw said that when the tail of the scorpion dropped off from his hall float during mounting day, all of his hall's engineers were panicking for life.. and for the year 2005, mingui is one of the many who have returned to do rag all over again.. and i do admire you folks for taking up again..



hmm.. however minor these events may be, it's enough to make boys tear.. well, grown-up men included.. the heart, the efforts poured into the whole process.. it's as good as having rag/ rugby/ basketball and whatever else intergrated into their lives..

to s/u or not to s/u

home early for once.. don't ask me what are the reasons.. feeling not too good but this week is gonna be a more relaxed week since the mid-terms are already over till next week comes along.. but there's still work to do..

feeling headachey over the s/u options.. friends who said they won't s/u, have already s/u-ed their modules, leaving me a little confused.. coz i feel like using my head and bang my way through once again.. not sure if it's a good thing to do.. but i don't know.. should i s/u or not s/u?? without s/u, i'll be using my head to bang through 7 walls.. woohoo!! spannend!! *confused*

on a sidenote, saw a moth dived into a bowl of laksa this afternoon.. its wings got stained with the oil and could not fly any further.. traumatising!!

oh yes.. reminded by my friends.. happy founder's day too!!

just a tot to proclaim..

steph flew off this morning... gonna miss her and have to wait till late june to see her again... and i'm really surprised that i'm still awake despite sleeping late and waking up at the unearthly hour of 630am!!! though i know that it's much of a norm for many of my friends.. but nope, i sleep an average of 14 hours each day.. and i'm not joking!!! see, i'm not laughing!!! plans to go out didn't come about, so i spent the morning till 230pm, trying to figure out what was wrong with my graphs from simulink.. a really irritating software, subset of the family of matlab!!! irritants!! and to think that i'm gonna have a test based on matlab.. don't know how am i gonna survive it since there's no time to practice and all.. thanks loads to kelvin su/ guangpeng/ cheewee/ linchun.. yeah, these folks helped me through this morning, else it will be an even more torturous journey.. for the moment, i promise not to touch matlab and simulink for some time to come!!! what the heck!! *faints*

found out quite a bit of stuff today.. not just issues which may involve me, but about other people as well.. with reference to nobody in particular, sometimes things happen for the better of all the folks involved yah.. personally, i felt that indeed, some stuff happened for the better.. jawohl!! just feeling a complete sense of liberation and freedom.. some stuff just worked out better than i thought.. think it's not gonna be an easy path to walk on, but i'm gonna walk it through still..

there are times to deceive yourself, there are times to humour yourself.. but there comes a time, when you just have to wake up and move on.. and don't look back.. feeling a little like this now.. but i'm on the last part of my statement.. yeah, i got a whole life out there, with much to explore.. and i even found myself a backpacking partner, erm, that is if everything works out.. none other than nitya.. hahhha!!! and definitely, with my desires and passions to fulfill.. gosh!! suddenly life looks more challenging and exciting than ever!! woohoo!!!

on a sidenote: i met deborah online!! missing her here man...

marvelled at how He works..

yeah, i really do wonder and all i can do is just to marvel at Him..

had a pretty busy and crazy and confusing week.. monday was a cross-island trip with carrie, taking photos of all the possible toilets we could find, in total 23 toilets, from changi airport to the singapore zoological gardens to the woodlands checkpoint, esplanade, raffles hotel etc.. even to the point of scheming to take photos of the toilets.. went down to sentosa just to visit the toilets and chanced upon this.. pretty yeah?? but the colours ain't that clear... oh yes, we're wondering when the sentosa management put this up..


went for raffles hall's cultural night on tuesday and yes, the jam-x 2005 winner, turning point, was good.. got kelvin li finally hyped up about the whole performance man.. wednesday and thursday were spent studying for pdc and mto mid-terms on friday.. which were a terrible disaster, esp. mto.. to think that i was feeling quite prepared for it coz it's the only module, which i've done the tutorials for.. but nope, it felt worse than pdc.. but just really how my Father worked... He just turned things around in His time.. pdc really felt much better.. maybe i'm being over-confident here but i just wanna sing His praises.. to add to that, there's my german test results.. yeah, i ended last week with the 'big bang' and i got the paper back this evening.. well, it was much better than i expected.. it was the best results i've ever gotten for a semester test since the days i first started learning german.. woohoo!! but it was really by His grace..

i'm just really glad over the german results.. but the highlights of the week were actually the meeting with aunty jean and cell group this evening, which i finally got to go after so long!!! meeting with aunty jean was.. i just can't put it into words but just reminds of me where i should put my focus to.. and there's cell group too.. really thankful for my parents, who came to pick me up after german classes to fetch me to cell.. today's topic was on serving and ministry.. well, close to it coz i didn't read up before going.. we went on to talk about, what is your passion and desire in life??

hmm, shall share a little bit here.. to certain extent, i do know what drives me, what my passion and desire in life is.. honestly, given me any chance, i really wanna have a job that is people-oriented.. don't ask me what am i doing in my faculty.. *laughs*.. yeah, i really want to work with people.. and you know what?? through today's cell and meeting with aunty jean, it kinda brought a new light to studying german.. it's really more than just studying now.. i don't exactly know if this is the reason why He gave me the chance to take on german, but i'm gonna approach this language with a different view now.. and yes, sometimes and most of the time, He speaks to me through people, through what discussions bring about.. and stuff that He tells me, are usually issues that i have to work through in my life..

"Delight yourself in the Lord and He will give you the desires of your heart."
Psalm 37:4

something which i've not done much but yes, gonna shift my focus a little.. was telling wei, i do need to shift my focus and put what's more impt on position 1..

oh yes, that weird 4-line poem was taken from chloe's blog.. just felt that it kinda described how i was feeling at that particular moment.. so yeah, no worries.. no biggie issue.. but was telling sean sean, that i'm a mind-over-heart person.. but there are just some stuff that i wanna be able to feel and response to.. hmm, this statement is gonna result in a pretty big confusion, so if you don't quite understand what i just typed, don't read too much into it yah!! *laughs*..

gotta hit the sack soon.. though i had more than ample rest during the mid-term break, which wasn't even a break, considering the amount of stuff that i had to do.. but peijia's right, without the break, can't imagine how we're gonna study for mto & pdc mid-terms, do reactor and pdc assignment, lab report, tutorials... so just wanna thank Him for sustaining me everyday.. steph's flying off later.. gonna go send her off so i need the sleep.. by the way, i wanna watch 'closer'.. argh!!! nitya has watched it already!!! someone give me extra time to squeeze in the movie!!! hicks..

the love you cannot have
lasts the longest
feels the strongest
& hurts the most...

ended with a big bang..

but jootz said that i can't say 'big-bang' coz it will mean that it's the end of the world.. erm, whatever.. but i really did end it with a big bang.. quite a big one too.. german semester test 1.. pretty drained and worried and scared and whatever other emotions.. too jumbled to say anything.. just hope that can do well for it.. i know it's dumb, but i don't exactly want to s/u the module even if i had to use my head to bang my way through.. like a few of us were saying, we don't exactly hate german yet we are just so tired of the module.. maybe that comes with all the crap that some of us went through..

hmm, before i forget.. yuping!!! happy 21st birthday!!! don't have the photos here but that babe was hot man!!! who can forget about desmond too, who we joked about the entire sunday evening that he could not decide what to wear, thus that would explain his absence.. yeah, saw some of my jc classmates.. met nicole!!! yeah, after so long.. then there's mark who went off to australia on thursday and libin is flying later today.. the guys are gonna start uni soon!!! oh my gosh!!! zhijie's thinking of switching over to nus engin.. hmm.. yeah.. caught up with some of them.. my initial plan to leave by 8pm failed.. left at 10pm instead.. but was time well-spent.. so not that it bothered me..

long week ahead.. spent v-day swooning over 6-pages worth of german vocab.. thanks to kel-li-su [ie. kelvin li & kelvin su] and dwi, who bought flowers for the girls on behalf of the class guys.. yeah, this year, the girls didn't do anything for the guys.. opps!!! for the rest of the week, just spent everyday in the company of german.. not the hunky germans but the german language.. tired, confused, numbed.. throw in a couple of assignments, the whole week went up in smokes.. salvaged the situation by having close references but spent a heck of a time to copy it.. oh wells..



couple of stuff happened over the course of this week.. some may know why but otherwise, nevermind.. mood's been osciallating pretty drastically.. maybe that's why i chose not to blog during the week, apart from the fact that i had no time.. but i guess i just don't exactly know what to do.. it's just how, whenever one tries so hard, yet nothing happens.. trying to control my emotions still.. then again, shall keep my blog a happy blog..

mid-sem break is here.. not that i'll get much rest.. too much to do with all the mid-terms and projects to do.. yeah, my toilets-tourism project.. hmm, if kendrick said that we need time for ourselves, i really want it too..

peter gabriel - book of love

The book of love is long and boring
No one can lift the damn thing
It's full of charts and facts and figures and instructions for dancing
But I
I love it when you read to me
And you
You can read me anything

The book of love has music in it
In fact that's where music comes from
Some of it is just transcendental
Some of it is just really dumb
But I
I love it when you sing to me
And you
You can sing me anything

The book of love is long and boring
And written very long ago
It's full of flowers and heart-shaped boxes
And things we're all too young to know
But I
I love it when you give me things
And you
You ought to give me wedding rings

And I
I love it when you give me things
And you
You ought to give me wedding rings
And I
I love it when you give me things
And you
You ought to give me wedding rings
You ought to give me wedding rings

sylvia!!! happy 21st birthday!!!

yeah.. finally a girl's 21st party!! well, there's no drunk or wet birthday boy/ girl.. everyone was kept very dry and very sane... the birthday girl is none other than the lady in yellow in front - sylvia!! oh yeah, these are all the girls who were there.. weiche, joanne chen & esther came late.. oh yeah.. jac and me were like the bell-service for syl.. had to help her put away the gifts in her room.. after lunch, we all just crowded in her room, playing bridge, big 2, uno.. small but cosy gathering.. managed to find out what's been happening to a few friends..

jasline was telling us of her birthday party.. a 4-day, 3-night chalet.. entertaining different groups of friends each day.. and if we choose to stay over for a night, we have to disappear by the next morning.. else we have to be 'marias' for her.. right!!!

went shopping with jac at jurong point, which she is so bored of.. see, ntu is just like a few bus-stops away from the central.. well, guess it beats being stuck in clementi, revolving around only 3 locations: home/ nus/ west coast food centre... not that exciting too.. but ntu is just too far away from my place.. contented with nus.. *laughs*


oh yes, here's my fellow bell-service provider: jac!!

o-zone - dragostea din tei

Ma-ia-hii
Ma-ia-huu
Ma-ia-hoo
Ma-ia-haa

Alo, salut, sunt eu, un haiduc,
Si te rog, iubirea mea, primeste fericirea.
Alo, alo, sunt eu Picasso,
Ti-am dat beep, si sunt voinic,
Dar sa stii nu-ti cer nimic.

[Refren]
Vrei sa pleci dar nu ma, nu ma iei,
Nu ma, nu ma iei, nu ma, nu ma, nu ma iei.
Chipul tau si dragostea din tei,
Mi-amintesc de ochii tai.

Te sun, sa-ti spun, ce simt acum,
Alo, iubirea mea, sunt eu, fericirea.
Alo, alo, sunt iarasi eu, Picasso,
Ti-am dat beep, si sunt voinic,
Dar sa stii nu-ti cer nimic.

Ma-ia-hii
Ma-ia-huu
Ma-ia-hoo
Ma-ia-haa
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i don't exactly care if the singers look gay or what-so-ever... it's been so long but i still like this song all the same.. yeah, think it carried and still carries too much memories for me.. so even if the mtv is really crap and the guys are just acting cute, i still won't mind it.. the quality ain't that good but go take a look at it if you want to.. o-zone - dragostea din tei

constantine

hmm.. watched this movie with my cousins on the 1st day of chinese new year.. amanda got me so hyped up over it but it was pretty terrible.. don't exactly like the theories that the movie proposed and it kinda revolts religion and all.. i don't know.. i left the theatre feeling more confused than before.. keanu reeves is still that pale-looking.. rephrasing his 'one hero saves the world' role.. oh wells.. but guess it was the company that i really enjoyed more.. paul, gabriel, amanda... just thinking how we, cousins, can still do stuff together though we are all that old..

went down to river hong bao at night.. the crowd was terrible... too much, i was more than turned off... and i know that this is going to sound super bimbotic.. but the stupid escalator at the esplanade ruined my shoes.. oh sheesh!!! but the highlight of the day was the fireworks that i saw... in some sense, i was standing at the wrong spot to view it but it was spectacular enough for me still though i wished i was more up front.. just thinking how everything will be different if sep gets through.. and was also thinking through stuff as i walked around.. need to pray harder to hear from Him.. maybe i'll write about it some day..

chinese new year = no work done.. someone should start making me feel guilty coz there's much to do and nothing's done.. sheesh!!! oh, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!!

CN6's pre-chinese new year celebration 2005

to kendrick: thanks for organising this whole get-together though the initial number of people gave me a little shock, but all turned out well.. and for the yu sheng too.. yeah, it was great to lau together..

to peijia: thanks for coming and bringing sotong balls with you.. now you know how to fry them well!! practise makes perfect!! don't worry, you won't be a 'jing di wa'.. one day we will go travelling together yah??

to xingyi: thanks for coming and had loads of fun playing hotel.. and for buying all the food too and being amongst the first to come!!

to doreen: thanks for the koniaku-jelly and delifrance baguette.. that kind of wraps up the dinner for us with good dessert and good company for the curry.. oh yeah, we play hotel some other time again yah!! thanks for rushing down from town too..

to linchun: thanks for buying the fruits.. had so much fun playing hotel.. esp. since you were fighting with xingyi & doreen over the entrance ownership.. oh yah, don't sleep too much yah!!

to guangpeng: it's the 1st time i saw century eggs, in it's original form.. thanks for coming.. and opps, somehow the dice didn't really like you.. kept giving you a ONE in every roll..

to edwin: i thought you bought large pizzas.. but thanks for coming.. and since you lau so high, must get cap 5.0 yah!!

to juline: hey gal, thanks for coming.. great having you around though i didn't get to talk to you much throughout the night.. hope that you had fun too..

to jianz: thanks for coming even after rehearsals.. yeah, you must be tired man!! and for cooking too.. come to think of it, like one of the rare times i've seen guys do the cooking instead of the girls.. oh yah, didn't know that you can pleat hair too!! yeah, but you didn't do your job of eating more!!!

to dwi: hey dude, thanks for coming down.. sorry that you and juline had to rush from mass.. but hope that you all had loads of fun.. yeah, the official bridge club in class..

to kelvin li: hey brother, thanks for rushing down after steamboat.. and i'm really surprised that you can still eat.. but that's a good thing... =) eat more.. put on more weight, so i won't feel too guilty..

to lisa: thanks for coming and hope that you had loads of fun.. kind of a different thing from the usual get-togethers.. and your dip was great.. gonna have it for breakfast tomorrow... oh man, i better learn a thing or two from you after the exams.. have fun in bintan!!

to sheena: thanks for coming and for helping with the clearing up.. your sore-throat didn't let you eat too much.. but you should just eat, since it's chinese new year!! heehee, bad advice!! don't tell kendrick!!

had a really great time this evening.. everything worked out.. and everyone was here.. guangpeng officially branded me as one that never enters the kitchen.. *laughs*.. oh yes, i can't believe that we actually watched 'huan zhu ge ge' before everyone came.. anyway, had loads of left-overs, which will most likely last me a few breakfasts... oh yah, the photos have been uploaded.. check it out under the links..

hmm.. eeny-mini-miney-mole actually reminded me of the ice cream gang.. in the same way, there are 4 of us.. who always ended up doing the same thing together.. kind of miss the times together and all the fun back then.. if anyone of the ice cream gang ever reads this, I REALLY MISS YOU GUYS!!! hopefully i'll get to see you all during chinese new year..

dinner at curry favor: a japanese curry restaurant.. it's also deborah's farewell... oh, daowen's leaving too, with debbie.. hmm, we're supposed to get something for debbie that reminds us of her.. opps, shall pass it to you soon k?? so sorry.. hmm, gonna start missing people again.. having quite a bit of mixed feeling over some stuff.. but chills, it will be over and done with.. by the way, gonna bring my camera to take more photos tomorrow too..

on a side note, to all my german classmates who read my blog, the photos for our 'kuchen machen' session have been uploaded but i'm missing those from kim nyang... yeah, so just go check it out under my links yah!! viel Spaß aber der kuchen ist sehr dunkel.. opps... yeah, all the kind of fun that we had.. thanks to our organiser: leeying.. the too-many chefs: weiyao/ chengho/ yingchao/ beng kheng/ junfu/ ailing & our master chef: khim nyang.. the pgp kitchen's power supply got tripped too.. thankfully the oreo cheesecake came out pretty okay... *phew*.. =)

dedicated to ian ng

currently listening to: mambo jambo album
[courtesy of weiliang.. and now it's stuck to my head.. oh no!!!]

hmm, i know that this is really weird, but i'm dedicating this post to my primary 1/2 classmate whom i have not seen since primary 6 and finally once on seniors' night, as he 'gatecrashed' to pay his friends a visit, and with almost all probabilities tending to zero, i met him this evening at holland village.. just funny how, we all still look the same since primary school days..

hmm, guess it's just so nice to see friends who have gone a long way back.. spent some time catching up and i must say, new zealand kind of make ppl beef up and all.. the same thing applies to uncle steven's son.. yeah, ian's family migrated and he's going to start his honours year after this short holiday back in sunny singapore.. oh, his major is biomedical sciences.. hmm, something which i guess, a lot of us wanted to major in but unfortunately it's unavailable here..

don't think you will ever get to read this, but it was great seeing ya after such a long time.. just kinda thankful to God to be able to meet friends here and there.. and still be able to talk and yadda much about what's been up with our lives.. much to say but have loads to do.. so enjoy your last year before coming back to serve the nation.. *laughs*.. hmm, shall not be evil.. =P